Since I was a weird person, sometimes I felt that nobody could understand me, though they tried. But some people still won't try to understand, they just kept thinking, talking and treating me like a weirdo, they call me annoying even when I didn't do anything, I didn't bother them, why they should be mad? Why they should always tell me to go away, sometimes I felt that strangers do treat me better than them. Them. People at my house. I live with them, for 23 yrs of my life. I tried hard to make them happy, though I still being a naughty girl. I did my chores everyday, with all my best but no appreciating from them. I don't need them to tell me that I did a great job, just treat me nice and I'll be satisfy. Even my mom always telling me that I was annoying, though I just stay quiet. I often let it out bo no one took it seriously, they just think that I'm nagging too much. My little sister seldom treat me nice, she always getting mad at me. Maybe I'm too sensitive, but I'm not. I always have this thought a day but I try to shrug it off because I love my family, I feel that they aren't love me that much as I love them. I know that my mom loves me, I know that my father is proud of me but they didn't show it, instead they kept treating me well... Not that nice... Sometimes I felt like I'm just a housekeeper, a maid in my family (since I did half of the chores in my house, beside my mom). My mom blame me if the kitchen was dirty (after she cooked), I know maybe that maybe she's just joking but still it hurts, like she didn't appreciate my hardwork to clean all her mess. I felt like I don't belong in here, my very own house, but if I don't, where should I go? Sometimes I have this thoughts, but only me, God and my pillow who knew it.... But tonight, I could stand it anymore. I cry a river... My older sister asked me if I'm good, I just say that I'm okay, I didn't know how to tell her about this... Well, I don't know why but suddenly, I think about AFF and here I am, bawling over my trouble... i hope I don't bother you all... Gut nite...