Sometimes I'm afraid when I write a story

I'm really afraid, seriously, especially when I wrote about Banglo.

First of all, Banglo OTP has many haters and they are reaaaaally scary (in my opinion)... Idk why it's wrong to ship them? Junhong is older now (if you can't stand anyone with big age difference, my mom and dad was 10 years apart, okay?) AND IT'S NOT EVEN REAL. IT'S ALL ON OUR HEAD (THOUGH WE NEVER KNOW WHAT THEY DO BEHIND US, YOU NEVER KNOW). I'm not comfortable when I post my Banglo comic , even when its theme is fluffy, I still feel uneasy. That's why I don't post my Banglo comic drabble and Falling Sky at other site. Falling sky will contains some mature contents  though I won't draw it (how could I draw it? never. and this isn't a spoiler, I've put a warning tho). I can't even post it on a comic site due to the theme (a theme about ion is banned on the site). but still I'll draw or write about them, they're my source of inspiration. I'll change the main character, I always put Junhong as the female position (that's what my friend told me, she said I make Junhong like a woman. I was like, 'really?'). Once I find another girl to replace him. But for now, it's BANGLO forever. Sorry.

Secondly. I'm afraid if my friends find me. There're two reasons: first, I love being invincible (I'm uneasy when I get much attention). The other reason is that my friends are not too fond of 'boyxboy' romance. My very first romantic story is Longing. I asked a close friend to read it since it was my first time writing romance fic, I need some advice (I'm not too fond of romance). She said it's okay, just... why would I write about man and man in love? I was dumbfounded. The reason is simple, I can't find any girl for Bang, so I put Junhong there. I'm not too fond of Banglo before but they make me believe it (All those posts, why you guys so suspicious stop it!). I told her the reason and she said 'okay' but her expression... she seems disgusted in me. I hide all my fic drafts after that, I became more careful when I post my drawings on IG and I never show them my comics. People here don't really accept such thing. They may not say it out loud, but it hurts more when you find them talk about you secretly. Nope. I don't want lose my friends because of my hobby. I know it sounds selfish but I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIEND BESIDE THEM (I'm really bad at making friends. I'm pathetic, I know it). I even changed my pen name (from nana_tecchan to freakinme) because I'm afraid that they'll find me (I've showed this site to them previously). Actually I really want them to read my comics tho. :|

It's just a fiction, why so serious?

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piqahbyg97 #1
for me,i'm not hating any shipping.i don't care about it.but,when i read fanfic that the theme is shipping,especially between boyxboy or girlxgirl,i don't care either.but what i hate it sometimes the fanfic contain which i don't like.thats why when i read or search fanfic,i read the theme first.i'm not hating any shipping..seriously,but the fanfic always ruin it..
EXOKatVIXXBangtan #2
I see what you mean when you say you're afraid. I showed my fanfics to quite a bit of people. One person was so immature I just deleted my entire story so they would never find it again. The other said it made them "sick to their stomach" just because it was boyxboy it was my most prized work ever. I didn't take it down because I actually still trust them. Just remember that others have different preferences and we cant change that. You dont have to or feel the need to share it with then if you think they wont like it. Even if they are your only friends You can still post whatever you want to whether they find it or not. If they diss you, in my opinion, honestly they aren't really your friend. The person who said it made them sick still said it was beautifully written though they would never like to read something like it again. So it all depends on the people you hang out with c: dont forget you always have us here on AFF ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Jet_niwa #3
Now for me zelo has been my ultimate bias for years. I've always loved him. With that said. I love shipping banglo. Its a very guilty pleasure to read. With what I have seen of them they have a really good dynamic. They are very nice to one another and treat each other well. Its because they are that close that I can ship them. In all honesty I wouldn't mind if it was true. I know they would be good together. Another point ide like to make is that junhong is neither masculine or feminine. He is more childlike. So whatever role you as an author write him as can work. A writer can't let every single opinion or the majority's view on something make them change what they want to write about. If you want to ship onew with chicken then do it. If you want to ship Rain with suga then do it. Don't be afraid of what others think. Yes you will get criticism or praise but that's not why you write. You write because you want to. Your friends should accept that you like writing about different types of relationships. That is normal. If you need help with your writing, you have your long distant friends like us who would be willing to do just that. You are not alone in this. And you shouldn't change unless you want too. I hav taken enough of your time. Author-nim fwighting
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