Hi, finally I made a blog post again...

First of all, I wanna thank all of you for supporting me :) I may not show it but I'm really thankful for your comments and PMs, you're really helpful esp when I can't contact any of my friends here...

As you know, I was pretty broken on my last post. I've done a psychological test (for my job requirement) and my result was pretty bad... I was diagnosed with a paranoid personality disorder and my score wasn't great, it was almost on the poor level and it could be worse if I was honest while answering it (I've manipulated some of my answer, my bad... )  -____-"

I was pretty devastated when I found it but I've accepted it now though I still wanted to see the doctor and ask for re-test. I also wanna asking some help from the doctor, because I'm afraid that I can't survive in my workplace but I think I got better now... I'll try my best to accept myself and fight all the bad thoughts but still I'll ask professional help someday when I am brave enough (being diagnosed with psychological disorder is a disadvantage for my working life for now...)

My health condition is also really poor these days. My back pain prevents me from doing many things, it's hard to sleep with the pain. I also got cramps on my legs and my hands. two days ago I even couldn't move my left arm suddenly. I got headache, like something's pressing my brain and it's really annoying. My stomach is also hurt and my ears are stinging, I feel like someone rings a bell inside my ear. My mom bans me from using computer too often, she thought it's because the radiation. I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow... the funny thing is that I create a story about my sickness OTL (of course it's inside my head :P)

I've finished coloring my drafts and I only need to edit them now and I will post it soon when I got better... I've prepared 5 chapters for Falling Sky but I will post it one by one when I finish it...

Thanks, goodnight... I hope tomorrow will be a better day...