I'm in love with a guy named Park Chanyeol. He's handsome, bubbly and loves to smile. The complete opposite of me. But why do i love him so much? T^T

OTL ranting time guys.

There's this girl at my school. We weren't close. I have my own group and each of us are in love with different members of EXO. oh you know, the 'he'sminegopicksomeoneelsetypeoffriendship'. So.. this girl, i heard from my friends she likes Chanyeol too though i wasn't jealous or anything (yet). anyone can love my chanyeol as much as i do. (except if it's my own group members xD) But i can't help but notice how similar she is to Chanyeol...tall, pretty, she smiles and laughs like Chanyeol. She's like the perfect match of Chanyeol's ideal type and she likes Chanyeol so yeah, perfect for each other. Meanwhile, i had nothing similar to Chanyeol. We're far too different and it makes me think why i stan him all these time.

it's not like i'll ever meet him. I know that. But my self esteem is getting low. Everytime i think a scene of me and him, she always comes into the picture. If i didn't like Chanyeol so much i would probably ship them too even if it was impossible. I think i should look for a new bias. It's hard though since i stan Chanyeol ever since he appeared in SNSD's Genie mv.

And also, i'm to known in my school as the most hot-tempered person ever. Even the teachers acknowledge that T^T i don't mean to be angry easily but my face is just ugh. I rarely smile because i look ugly when i smile. Really. so whoever said 'Anyone can be beautiful if she smiles', it's bull. See what i mean by low self esteem ?

BACK TO THE MAIN TOPIC. She's so pretty and reminds me of Chanyeol. I can't. Too perfect. I'm a loser. Sorry you had to see this.

  /SIGH