So, there I was, randomly checking out some Vocaloids vids & covers (if you do not know what those are - GOOGLE IT! If you do, you'll know what I just did there ;D ) when I should have been doing something productive and then BAM! After jamming to Hatsune Miku's Left Behind City (give it a listen, ne?) I come across this comment (well, it's hard not to since it's the top comment) and it really hits home. Here it is:  

I can completely relate to this song, the feeling of being left behind and needing someone there. I have always lived in a small town which i was not born in, but i started school in. Everyone else i know has this best friend-since-eternity, and I'm just there. i have some good friends, but they have their better friends, and I'm "left behind" without the great friendships, or great first love. However, I'll keep waiting for that one hand to reach out to me<3 

While I didn't move to a town where everyone has a bffl and whatnot, I did find myself just there when people decided left and right to become their own Harry Potter Trio leaving me to be that random fourth who joins the group once and a while. Yeah, there are those people I'm pretty close to, but at the same time, I'm not close to them at all.

Le sigh. 

This could be a result of me not being social enough or reaching out enough or just generally pushing people away at random points in my life, but asdskflalawirwpa;s;;t. It's hard to become close friends with people who've decided that they have all the people in the world they need.  It's even harder when you yourself randomly decide you want to push those people you want to be closer friends with away.  

I just don't know anymore. I'm confusing myself now. I'll shut up.

--Steins.

P.S. Might as well give you people another song to check out. Volia. Voici.