I'm starting to regret having my hopes up about AFF community.

It's like Ayuhime once said, AFF is like that annoying friend you keep and still can'y explain why you do it.
Some people here can be quite warm but others quite stupid and downright disrespectful. We all have our lives, we all have our problems, we all have our dreams and the fact that sometimes we feel so alone we come to confide in this kind of community doens't give others the right to misjudge or look down on us. all those who do.

I love to write, I really do, and it brings a smile to my face each and every time you say you love a story or a chapter I post up. It's like a warm embrace given by a stranger... and, sometimes, it still feels more real than most of my everyday life moments.

It's sad that I now look around and feel like AFF is dying. A lot of good authors were wronged, a lot of them misvalued. A lot of them are gone. And I think it servers the community well. People only give value to what they lose; here is no different.

If you think I've been away and have no right to talk then let me tell you that despite the long absense of updates from me I have been present. Although most of the time silently, I have read a lot of your blogs and most of your stories and commented whenever I could or felt like I should.

I don't give a about this Karma thing or about the upvotes (at least given to me). I gave a lot of upvotes in stories that I really loved but I don't really care if my stories are being voted on. One quick glance and I figured none of them were. Whatever. Comments and a lot more heartwarming than numbers. And once again I will quote Ayuhime - a lot of AFF featured stories are just downright hard to read! English is not my first language but still I do my best and make sure the errors are minor, the struture functions and the story itself makes sense. Is that even appreciated here?? My Mycrosoft Word Dictionary broke and doesn't work anymore unless I reboot my computer completely which I can't do because of work. Still, I'm using a minor word corrector to make sure I keep my text clean. That's how much I like to see a good text, a good story and follow through.

More than once I thought about going back to livejournal. Yeah, I had an account there too. I just chose AFF because it was a smaller community that seem well organized and cousy enough. Now it just feels like highschool with all these 'featured author's' and 'karma points'... it's barbies vs dorks all over again.

I'm not saying I'll delet this account. Noop, not doing that. Once again, just giving my opinion. Please respect it.

I'll continue developing what I have. But if by any means anymore here gets on my nerves I guess I'll just do like the others and start posting my stories elsewhere.

For now, I expect things to get better. I still have a lot to give and even a new co-authoring project going on.
I just hope AFF proves to be worth it. And when I say «AFF» I mean the whole community, the users, the readers. ALL of us.


That's it.
Thank you for reading; don't give a crap if you ignored. I'm used to it.


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