Ok guise.

So....there's no normal way to say this so I'm just gonna sound a tad lesbian-ish here and confess that I have a girl crush. I have a very distracting girl crush on SNSD Jessica. It's really super weird because, unlike MyLucifer and her nearly terrifying love affair with Sooyoung, there's no attraction of any sort. Just a ton* of love and admiration.

* ton: unit of measure; the amount that can be contained in a single

It's all just weird because the realization that it was a full blown girl crush hit me kind of suddenly. One minute she's just slowly creepin' through the bias list then KABLAM, I'm in love. That escalated quickly.

Gull, I can't exprain what I fee-uhl.

I feel so awkward writing this that I don't even remember what I meant to say....

No matter, if I forgot it probably wasn't that important.

I shall now move onward to describe why I actually like Jessica so much. Though, to quote a dear friend "my computer probably thinks I'm a lesbian with an Asian " that is not the case and my reasons are more that of sisterly affection and role-model idolization.

Not in order of importance rather the order my scatter brain remembers:

1.) Her Personality

Ice Princess my . She's an extremely nice person. I kind of like, though I wish it wasn't so much that it always makes her uncomfortable, her shyness. She's not attention-seeking which is a very annoying quality. She's also just really mellow but still knows how to have fun. She's always deep in thought and celebrities who actually think is a refreshing change from what I'm used to here in the U.S.

It's okay, they'll never know to be offended.

2.) She possesses one of my biggest physical insecurities and wears it beautifully.

I know none of you will even see it but I notice it because I'm the same way. It shows up less because she's short

3.) Dat Snark

This Jessica kid, oh man. She's one snarky, sarcastic son of a .

On her taxi interview (after watching said interview I was officially in love with *so gay right now*) she was asked to rank her members on their looks. She had initially said it depended on the day and who was wearing what. The MCs asked her who was the prettiest today. Her response: "Well, I'm the only one wearing makeup..." lulz trollsica for the win.

4.) Sisterly Love

I love how much she loves her sister. The Jungcest is cute and warms my heart and kind of makes me miss my sister (she has since gone to college so I don't see her often anymore). It also reminds me more of the time my sister and I were closer. We aren't unclose so don't be thinking I'm here slandering my sister. I just miss when we were a couple years younger and had more in common and she actually wanted to spend her time with me. She has work and school and her boyfriend and friends and in the mix of all that she still does make time to come see us all so it's good but I'm certainly lower on the priority list. She's also closer to my brother who is far closer to me than her so the whole thing is weird. Hey, the boy likes Kpop we get along what can I say? Back to my Sica love confession and less about my family, I got totally off topic.

Ah the feels, back when my sister still loved me. Honestly it's been a while I just kinda miss her. My other sister and I didn't have a relationship like that ever but we really aren't even slightly close anymore. I'm sure she thinks everything is fine and dandy and right with the universe because her delusion is part of the problem. Again off topic, back to my love confession.

5.) She's not perfect.

Obviously no one is but she doesn't try to pretend she is either. She acknowledges her own shortcomings and tries to better them, which i find admirable. She also can't cook to save her life and if it weren't for Hyoyeon she probably would have starved to death. At 20 friggin years old she called her mom to ask how to make a tuna sandwich, then questioned the instructions. Jeez lady.

In conclusion I think I just changed my mind from girl crush to forceful sister adoption. Wow I'm like a lost child xD She's too pretty to be my sister though, so I guess I'll just marry her.

A brief overview of that relationship:

Let's get married yay!!!

*get home and sit on opposite ends of couch*

"You have to be gone by morning, I hope you know that."

So yeah, now I'll just be a fangirl and attach pretty little pictures. *so gay right now*

This hat is fabulous

Gurl, them glasses make this whole thing oddly ual.

Wae so angsty gull?

Yep, I'm done being gay at the moment. I still have the feels but I feel better now that I told the entire internet.

And bless your soul MyLucifer, for enlightening me to the fact that I am in love with Jessica. But seriously, you're posts are terrifying....and oddly ual. I still love you though.

(you really should stop that dear)

I feel bad that I keep adding to this post instead of just making a  new one so no one even sees the rest but I'm just too lazy.

I also really should have added DerpSica as a reason. I'll try harder not to in the future.

This xD