I might be in love with my best friend…who is a girl… I mean, we do everything together, we think the same things, we’re pretty much the same person, even.

We talk all the time even when we have nothing to say. And we always cuddle and hold hands and stuff, and people already think we’re dating.

But…I don’t know. I love her and all that, but to say I’m IN love with her seems…wrong. And fickle.

And, I mean I know it’s not unheard of, but I’m seriously attracted to men too. And, besides, she’s the only girl I’ve felt this way before. Not even to my lesbian friend who always jokes she’d date me if she were a man or I were gay.

But, I’ve never thought about doing any of those relationship kinds of stuff with her, like kissing. Maybe my brain just won’t allow it because I didn’t think she’d feel the same…

But today she told me she’s having the same doubts about our friendship and if it’s really JUST a friendship… She, of course, doesn’t think our relationship is as common as a girlfriend…girlfriend relationship, either.

Because it’s more like we’re the same…soul…or something. It’s complicated to explain, but I’m so confused, I need a little help here.

I’m a very confused panda right now.