The love of my entire life passed away Friday morning at 3:19am with my hand in his.  We had is funeral today (11-19-2012) which is really hard for me because my dad died on this day 3 years ago at 3:19am.

During the funeral I was referred to as "Mike's Angel".  The girl he truely loved.  I haven't cried this much in years.  I couldn't breath and my entire body shook.  His family has adopted me as their daughter/sister. 

I'm still in shock that Mike is gone and I feel like this is a nightmare and that I will wake up and he will still be here.  I know this is real though.  I also know that Mike is with me right now. 

I've felt his presences Saturday night..  I was watching a movie and some one touched my shoulder.  I was alone in the room.    Also the morning he passed, I saw out the corner of my eye a hand on my shoulder so I touched it but there was nothing there.  But I did see it...and once I did, I lost it...

I also know my dad is with me.  I saw him plain as day the night before I called his sister in law and she told me Mike was sick.  I feel it was my dad's way of letting me know that something was coming and it wouldn't be good.

I have alot of grieving that will happen and I know that this will take time and that my love is watching and waiting for me.

It's just so hard to lose the one person who was truly your soul mate.  I loved this man with everything I had and would have gladly switched places with him.  My heart breaks that his little 5 year old daughter will grow up with out her daddy, but she will know him and what a wonderful person he was.

My head and heart hurts deeply right now, so I will close this out.  I just wanted to let you all know what happened.

Amy