The love of my life is being taken away from me.  I'm glad I came when I did because I got to spend a good week with him while he was still himself.  In the next few days, I will lose the one man I have been in love with and I feel like I'm dying.  Watching my soulmate slip further and further away from me...What else is God going to do to me?  And this coming Monday, November 19th is my daddy's 3 year death anniversary...

I honestly can't take anymore pain, loss, heartache...

I've known this man for 16 years...He has been in love with me since the day he met me...and it took us till 4 years ago to finally become one...I was too blind to see that he was in love with me...He was too shy and scared to tell me that he was in love me...

He wants to me to be with him till the end and I will be.  This morning I finally gave him the "It's ok to rest and I'll be ok" talk...I didn't want to, but I know that I had to let him know that it was ok to let go and start his new journey.  God I didn't want to, but if I didnt...he...just........

I told him a few days ago that when we are reborn into our next lives, that I would search the world over for him and when I found him, I wasn't letting him go.  I truly mean this.  He is my soulmate.

He still senses me next to him.  He knows my touch and knows my kisses.  He makes movements such as nodding his head and squeezing my hand when he hears my name.  He just can't open his eyes anymore.  It will be just a matter of days now...

Even so...He will leave this life knowing that I love him with everything in me.

I'm tired...so very tired...