So I'll get straight to the point.~

My grandfather's [in the mom side] in the hospital and he has to undergo dialysis and blood transfusion... the same thing that my Dad went through in October last year.

And I'm totally scared of course. The fact that my mom's obviously scared too, scares me and it even brought me to tears.

I'm in my Dad's house now [my parents are separated]. And the reason why I'm here at my Dad's house is cause my mom has to take care of my grandfather right? And I have school, so this is where I'm staying now.

About an hour ago, she called me. I wasn't crying yet, but obviously I was frustrated because in her text message to me a while ago said "I don't think I can take this."

So, of course! Obviously, you'd feel bad and frustrated to see your parents like that. I mean, they were always the ones who were strong and there for you no matter what. They were the ones who encouraged you to be strong and always stood by your side.

So of course, it scared me that it seems like it's the other way around this time. Only that, I don't think I can deal with the fact that I can be strong for her the way she has always been strong for me.

It's so frustrating.

I want to be strong for her and for everyone else. I've always seemed like that kind of person, but the truth is, I'm the weakest out of all of them. I only pretend to be strong, but actually I'll be in a bathroom crying my eyes out.

So anyway, that's one reason why I cried.

Another reason is cause when she called, she asked me what my blood type was. I told her I didn't know but I think it's O. So she asked O positive? Cause that's my grandfather's blood type. I, again, told her I did not know. Then she asked me if I could donate blood. And that hit me hard. Not because I was selfish or scared! No, of course not. I guess I just cried because it felt like a big responsibility to do that. I mean, imagine, your mother asking you, her 15 year-old daughter to give blood! It's a big responsibility that she's entitling to me and to me only.

Cause she's not O and my sister's not an O too! But I think I'm O.

And one more thing, my parents are separated right? Well, naturally my dad would know what was going on with my mom's father because my sister told him. And guess, what! My dad is an O-POSITIVE!

You know what that means right? Yes, he can save my grandfather's life. He can donate his blood that is greatly needed.

And type O is hard to find.

So I wonder if my mom will agree to it, if ever I'm not an O-positive. My friend told me that, they should set aside what happened to them in the past so they can save my grandfather. She's right.

Aigoossumnida ^^ ~ I just hope and pray and wish that my grandfather will be alright! Even though I get annoyed or hurt by him sometimes, OF COURSE I STILL LOVE HIM NO MATTER WHAT.

I'm just scared.

And tomorrow, I am going to visit. So yeah, I'm scared too cause I don't think I can look at him in a hospital bed. The same goes for when my dad was in the hospital last year. I told my friend that we should just keep texting while I was visiting, so I could divert my attention to something else because obviously, we'll get hurt if we see our loved ones in a situation like that right? :(

So that's all for now. I just really needed to let this out. Please help us pray for him. Please. Please. Please. It would mean a lot and surely good things will come to you. ~

Kamsahamnida.

*bow

Truly,

Kwon Taehee/ Ella Kwon/ Elle J.

This is how I looked about an hour ago:

Only that my nose was redder.

;(