anyway, this is not to ask for any karma points so please do not give me any because it still won't be enough and I don't think there's anymore time. and i initially just thought of advertising since i have a bunch of karma points to spend...and yesterday, the bidding still looked affordable....but of course...now it's not...so...no biggie...not like it's an ongoing fic i desperately needed support for anyway....

i just wanted to advertise to promote my fic that i'd like to be read more by fans of the group in conjunction with ZE:A's 12th anniversary(or was it 13 if we go by Korean counting system? idk...)

so...no biggie....i'll just advertise for free here...lol. besides in the past, i had spent money for advertising at the time i was in super high spirits here...but in the end...all i got were bunch of congrats, a few new readers and yeah...pretty much no everlasting effect...and i end up not completing that fic anyway since it got too complicated and i had little motivation and inspiration to balance the level of complicacy and heaviness of the fic...i mean a bunch of characters died in that fic...and in my original planning at the time i was writing that fic..even the heroine would end up dying after failing to save each of her dearest siblings no matter how she tried after her pact with the devil....of course this is major spoiler but does it matter? no it does not. 

Anyway, the fic i want to promote for this blogpost is none other than my most...suitable fic to be promoted for purposes like anniversaries...the fic that tells about the group, from each of the group members' perspectives(of course fictionally since i can't claim to really know what goes on in their minds, but so far the few readers i had seemed satisfied with how i represent the members...) the central conflict is one member just got popular and offered a solo contract which meant he had to leave his group that had just gotten some buzz with his newfound fame. this was inspired by realtime event, in which at the time this fic was written...the member chosen as central character had just gotten insanely popular as an actor, many didn't even know he's an idol. and as a fan, i imagined the worst case situation if he decided to leave the group. The member is now still very much relevant as an actor and has a currently airing drama and the group had disbanded-not-disbanded for years already now. i use the term 'disbanded-not-disbanded' because kpop fans are very sensitive about the word disband when it is what it is. the idols would say they didn't disband but mostly i see it as a means to keep the support from their fans coming...without proof of effort...words like 'we never disbanded' means nothing to me. and by proof of efforts....see Rainbow for example. they're a group that really proved their words. they even regroup for an anniversary release all made from scratch by the members years after their disbandednotdisbanded....

Also, the fic was written to promote the songs in their newly released album at the time, SPECTACULAR....which i think was filled with spectacular songs...so each chapter not only represent each member but also each song in the album. You can even go to the fic just to listen to the songs...the last i updated the video links was last year, hope they're still good xD

but i guess at least the members still seemed to be friends...not sure all or just majority...but yeah they started pretty much organically anyway...with the leader being the one who recruited many of the members, some originally friends and some from directly reached out to by othe leader.

but anyway, 

Happy 12th Anniversary ZE:A!

i find it interesting that my top two groups are Battle and ZE:A and both have the colour pearl gold as their official color...isn't that an amazing coincidence? to have your two ult groups having same colour? xD

feel free to read my fic, i chose this one even though i have like 29 fics with zea tags...i just feel...this is a fic i can dedicate to ZE:A fans.

S.P.E.C.T.A.C.U.L.A.R

Disclaimer: i know there are misspelings and grammatical error here and there but even after all these years i haven't really take the time to really correct the ones i could so...yeah...

If you read the fic, do drop a comment....i remember, this was the fic that was on the verge of being abandoned, it was left for a year at chapter 3 or 4...but because a reader that suddenly crept up in the comment section....somehow i found the strength and courage to pick up from where i left and just work it until the end....until today, i'm thankful to that reader....i'm not a very disciplined/determined person....more like the opposite...

Also, being a ZE:A fan had brought me many happiness and friendships even though in the end it's just back to square one as always. that's life. being in Battle and ZE:A fandom had brought me friendships that i once thought would always remain bright and beautiful. some friendships were likely ended by my own insecurities n stupid expectations...some ended/disappeared without me even knowing what brought the change all of a sudden....lol i don't think i have luck in friendships/relationships be it online or offline world....at least the good memories remain in my distant memory i guess.

Anyway...

in the end....i did manage to advertise my fic even if not a grand one and just hourly bid...which seemed to have nobody so yay...my playground...