⦓ ₳1 ⦔ (TURQUOISE)。 because no one else compares to JOOWON 。

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 GONG JOOWON

 
     BASICS  

NAME gong joowon 공주원
NICKNAMES 

princess/gongju 공주 ; if you take his last name and the beginning of his first name, you get the word "gongju" which translates to princess in korean.

duality king ; his fans have dubbed him with this name, saying that he has a charm of practically being two sides of the spectrum. on stage, he oozes charm and charisma and offstage, he has such a natural cuteness that no one would ever believe it was the same person. (ex. the absolute dISRESPECT that was this stage yells bc how can he smile so cutely in the middle and then continue dancing like that)

+ mom ; the members like to playfully address him this way, saying that he's their mother figure in the group. the one who's nurturing and spoils them but nags them from time to time.

+ boomer ; the younger members like to call him this simply to poke fun at his age and it's amusing to see his little whiny reaction when he tries to convince them that he's still young and hip

+ king of slapstick ; he's always falling over, running into things, or just flailing around and his constant clumsy actions have earned him this title ; one two

+ joomoney ; he has this ridiculous and comedic desire to be a rapper, always making up his own funny raps and trying to follow along with the actual raps in their songs. the nickname is kind of linking him to the show "show me the money" + his name ; one two three

 
ETHNICITY korean
NATIONALITY south korean
 
BIRTHDATE april 4th, 1996
AGE 24
 
HOMETOWN seoul, sk
BIRTHPLACE seoul, sk
 
LANGUAGES
+ korean ; fluent ; native language
+ japanese ; advanced ; he's been studying it ever since he first became a trainee and he's skilled enough to survive in japan on his own.
+ english ; beginner ; he takes lessons to imrpove his english but because he focuses more of his attention and skill on japanese, his english isn't very good. if you dropped him off in an english speaking country and left him there, he would die. he knows a decent amount of words but isn't good at making sentences or understanding others. at this point, his english is a source of comedy for the members and the fans.
 
ORIENTATION homoual
 
 
     THE FACE  
 
FACECLAIM ab6ix jeon woong
BACKUP victon choi byungchan
 
APPEARANCE
when he's off the stage, joowon exudes soft boy vibes. his hair is always down and his face is almost always adorning a bright smile. he's quite thin and pretty short, which doesn't help hide the fact that he's easy to throw around. his skin is also very fair, sometimes being compared to the princess snow white. he also has two lobe piercings, one on each ear but he tends not to wear anything too flashy.
when he's on stage, his makeup focuses heavily on his eyes, giving him a more sultry and sharp look. his hair is stylishly parted and depending on the comeback, it's usually dyed a different color than his natural black. when promoting, his earrings change to fancier ones, usually dangles or drops.
 
HEIGHT 168 cm
WEIGHT 56 kg
 
FASHION
joowon is more comfortable hiding his frame in the warmth of oversized clothes but as he sets foot to debut, he knew he would have to change his style, at least for when he goes out in public. if he's not at the company or the dorms with his sweaters, cardigans, or training fits, he'll be seen with outfits that accentuate his thin waist or his pretty collarbones. as much as he prefers to cover up, most of his shirts will have pretty low neck lines to further live up to his "y cutie" appeal.
  
 
 
     WHO YOU?   
  
  
  
pos selfless, playful, caring, dependable, protective
flustered neutral people pleaser
anxious, emotional, naive, fearful, insecure neg
 
ELABORATION
"hyung, why aren't you putting any meat on your plate?" "hmm? oh, i'm not that hungry. you guys can eat it all."
if selfless had a human form, it would probably look just like joowon. he's always ready to put others before him, giving up comfort, food, opportunities, even emotional health. perhaps he's just really kind or perhaps, he just doesn't value himself as much as he values others. he's grown up with this belief that he isn't good enough and that there's always something wrong with him and with every little mistake he makes, the thought only becomes stronger. because of that negative mindset, he's reduced himself to almost nothing and would gladly make way for others to receive good things so it isn't wasted on him.
 
"yo yo yo joomoney in the house check it!" "oh my god hyung pls."
he has a very playful nature, always trying his best to goof off with the members to remind them that it's okay to wind down. many of them had missed out on a normal childhood due to the trainee life and he wants to make sure that they have no regrets. having fun and even allowing them to and have fun is his way of making sure that they know it's okay to act like a child sometimes. he doesn't want them to feel so pressured to have to grow up so fast and so he lets them have their fun while he takes care of the serious matters. he also just loves laughter and having a good time so it's not as though he's forcing himself to do this. especially with the addition of the new members, joowon wants to make sure everyone feels comfortable and goofing off is always a nice and quick way to get closer. he doesn't mind when s poke fun at him and accepts everything in good fun. even if he does appear sulky, they know he's joking and there's never any tense air around them. 
 
"look, i don't wanna force you to tell me if you're not ready but i need you to know ,, i'm right here. i'm always gonna be right here, okay? you never have to carry that burden alone."
caring and dependable are probably joowon's best traits. perhaps it's because he's experienced his own fair share of hurt as he grew up but there have been countless times where he wished he could have someone he could rely on and now that he has s, he wants to be that person for them. he's constantly checking up on them, noticing when their mood seems a little off or their expression falters in the slightest. he never forces them to speak but he's very gentle and constant in his ways of comfort and reassurance. he makes sure that it's engraved in their minds that no matter what, he will always be there when they're ready. even if they come into his room at 3 am and he's sleeping, he'll sit up and put off rest to hear them out. 
 
"i- i'm sorry but if you have a problem, i'd prefer if you'd discuss it with me."
he's terribly anxious, too many fears and negative thoughts piling up in his mind. he absolutely hates confrontation and has a lot of trouble speaking to strangers but when he stands up for s, it shows just how important they are to him. sure, he may stumble over his words and panic may rise in his chest, but he would go through the depths of hell for his boys and no matter how hurtful it may be to take all the blame and hate, he'd prefer it that way. he's only this protective towards s because they give him the courage to step up even if fear is hovering over him.
 
"joowon hyung. you've never kissed anyone before hUH." "w w wHA- i- w what are you talking about-?!"
he's quite a flustered bean if you push the right buttons. he's normally fun to tease due to his reactions and lack of anger but when it comes to topics like romance, he's an absolute mess. putting aside romance or even ual jokes, he panics quite easily when it comes to confronting others. he's so set on pleasing people and making sure that they're happy with him that he tries to avoid any sort of conflict. when he ends up in a position where he has to confront someone, his heart can't help but race and anxiety is written all over his face.
 
[ members move one of his stuffed animals while he's in the shower as a prank ] "wha- how did that ,, wait you guys ,, don't go near it- it's possessed!"
he's quite naive in the ways of the world but even just in general, he's quite easy to prank. he believes people easily and this makes him an obviously easy target for jokes and pranks. there's a part of him that wants to believe in the good in all people so he does become blind to other possibilities. he also doesn't have much experience with many things and so he'll be easily drawn to people's lies, playful or otherwise. 
 
"you know what you seem like, joowon? a person who never learned how to love himself." "...."
much of his fear, anxiety, and insecurity stemmed from his family life. he's quick to emotions and even a people pleaser due to all the harsh words he endured while living at home. so much hatred stuck with him that it became truth to him in his mind. the lies of not being good enough, not being worthy of love, all of it is constantly echoing in his head. he's afraid that people will actually hate him if he does something wrong and so he does anything he can to make them happy with him -- just as he had to do around his mother. he may not show it but he's constantly worried that he'll mess up and everyone around him will realize that he's just as unlovable as his mind tells him he is. 
 
tl;dr/headcanons/extras
— basically a mother figure for the boys
— he treats others so much better than he treats himself. he doesn't give himself the same grace when he makes mistakes
— tries to be as optimistic and playful as possible so the members don't feel down. he's always checking in on everyone and talking about how important their mental health is but always puts his own issues and emotions on the backburner for their sake
— always makes sure to react to others, even if it's just a nod or a grunt so they know that he's listening even if he looks busy.
— always apologizes in the members place, taking the blame and responsibility for whatever he can
 


BACKGROUND
tw. very brief mention of verbal + physical abuse.
he's never truly understood why people seemed to put the idea of "family" on such a high pedestal. ever since he was young, he couldn't help but wonder if the world was wrong or if he was just the only one that had been cursed with a bad family. his father was an alcoholic, the stress of life always seeming to vanish when drunk on liquor and there wasn't a day that went by where joowon's father wasn't stumbling into the house at ungodly hours. his mom wasn't a drunk but she wasn't any better when it came to being a parent.
with the annoyance of the drunkard excuse for a husband, she couldn't help but grow bitter and angry at her life. she became easily irritable, lashing out for every little thing. there would be days when she would just lose it and throw things in rage, terrifying joowon as he grew to fear being imperfect in any way. as stress in her own life built up, she started to blame joowon for anything she could, not wanting to accept that her life was falling apart. if he'd bring home bad grades or forget to do chores, she would blame him for making her life so difficult. 
it didn't get any better as he grew up. her verbal abuse soon turned physical, slapping him if he even tried to utter a word of protest or defense. she would twist his words, accusing him of hating her and making her out to be a monster just so she could continue to call him ungrateful. "i can't believe someone like you is my son. it's despicable, really. how could i have been burdened with a kid like you?" 
no matter how much he tried to act like he wasn't affected, he couldn't stop the feelings of hurt that grew inside his heart. the more he heard these words, the more he grew to believe they were real. he dreaded being at home and felt suffocated. he found escape whenever he blocked out the world with music and eventually decided to audition, hoping that it would give him an excuse to stay away from home for as long as he could. when he got accepted, he spent so much of his time training that he would rarely go home. his relationship with his parents was extremely strained and they eventually stopped talking. even after debut, the only way they interact is when he sends home money to help pay for rent and other neccessities so his mother doesn't throw a fit.
 
 
     ALL OF MY FAVORITE THINGS  

LIKES

ice cream, especially popsicles. if he could, he'd eat at least one a day. it's his go-to snack. the only drawback is that he gets brain freeze really easily so he's stuck between wanting to eat the treat and saving his poor head from the pain.
physical affection. only from those he's close with. it makes him feel loved, even if it's just a high five or a pat on the shoulder.

ballads. as much as he's an aspiring rapper, he absolutely loves getting into the emotions of a song and being able to portray them. his karaoke sessions usually end with a really sad ballad, joowon belting his heart out like his life depends on it.
folding laundry. it's weirdly calming for him and he likes the warmth of clean laundry fresh out the dryer. 
fruit. his favorites are strawberries, peaches, and melons.
romance movies. since he's never experienced it for himself, he enjoys watching it happen and maybe even daydreaming about his future lover. 
music. "like" is an understatement. he loves it. he's never been able to properly express himself because of his mom so music frees him from that and allows him to focus on his emotions.

DISLIKES

exercise. to him, dancing doesn't count because it's so fun that it doesn't feel like a workout. he hates exercising or going on runs or anything physically demanding because his stamina is pretty weak, as well as his body, and it kills him.
horror. he's a big coward and absolutely hates anything scary, especially jumpscares. if he's ever forced to watch a horror movie, he will cry.
veggies. he'll eat it if it's cooked with other food but if he's given a straight up bell pepper, he'll make a face of disgust.
social media. he does his best to update for his fans but he doesn't look through comments as much, too scared of hate comments.
alcohol. the smell itself makes him want to throw up and he tries his best to refuse it. it reminds him too much of his dad and his home life that it triggers negative memories from him.
himself. he struggles a lot, still trying to recover from a lot of hurt and scars. there are so many aspects of himself that he's disappointed with and doubts eat away at him whenever they can. he's grown so used to putting everyone else first that he's somehow forgotten that he's also just a human and needs love and care like anyone else. 


HABITS

embarrassed. he leans into the nearest person, trying to hide himself against their frame.
anxious. he grips onto someone, needing something steady to keep him at peace. he also gets really fidgety.
emotional. when he feels himself on the brink of crying, he'll dig his nails into his skin or bite down on his lip really hard. he doesn't want to shed tears in front of anyone and so he tries to focus on a different sensation to distract himself.
panicked/flustered. when he's genuinely taken aback, his mind will go blank and he just ends up staring with confused, wide eyes.
showers. when his mood is down, he tends to take long showers. he just sits in the tub, hugging his knees to his chest and lets the hot water run down on him. it seems hella extra and dramatic but it's weirdly comforting for him.


HOBBIES

cooking. he's terrible at it but he always wants to make something yummy for s to show he cares. it never tastes too good since he's not used to making a portion that big but that never stops him. not even 's pleas for him to stay out of the kitchen can stop him.
painting. he's actually not very artistic but he enjoys doing those paint by number canvases. he finds it very therapeutic to be able to focus on something and not think about anything else.
acrobatics. he's been learning from when he first started dancing, always having been amazed by it.
writing letters. he picked up the hobby of penpal-ing, simply because he made so many acquaintances during his trainee years and wants to keep in touch. he enjoys spending his time putting together a cute artsy little letter and then going around to hand deliver them when he can. it's important for him to make sure the people around him know they're appreciated.
reading. he wants to get better at writing lyrics and so he reads a lot to help expand his vocabulary and his creative thinking.


SOCIAL MEDIA 

instagram ; @princess.won


TRIVIA

— is always the last one to let go in a hug. he doesn't want to pull away too early in case the other person needs to be held for longer so he stays until they move away first.

— isn't good at doing aegyo. people assume he would be good because of his natural cuteness but he can't do it on command because he gets too embarrassed.

— knows how to wake each member up. some of them require him snatching their blanket away. others, he can simply tell them to wake up and they do so. some, he has to turn the lights on. etc.

— he is the biggest bts suga fanboy. whenever he talks about him, he gets really shy and giggly.

— because he's very light, he's quite easy to lift and manhandle, frequently carried around and teased by those around him.

— is usually found with a stash of snacks somewhere. he has a pretty fast metabolism and enjoys snacking so much that he tends to get full before mealtimes. he's been scolded for this more than once. 

— is a concerning all things romantic. he's never had his first kiss, first time, never dated, etc.

— fans usually ask him to do embarrassing or cringe-y things for them during fan signs and though he'd do anything for fans, sometimes he wishes people would ask him about his thoughts or his music or just anything more intelligent than asking him to bark. he feels bad the minute he thinks that way, though, worried he's being ungrateful.

— cannot multitask. if you talk to him while he's focused on something else, he probably won't hear you. he's also messed up his autographs multiple times if he's talking to fans while writing. (ex. goowon, a1sauce, jooa1won, etc)

— when the members are out practicing or doing their own thing and he's left alone at the dorm, he likes to sit in front of the door, waiting for them to arrive.

— despite not being a dance position, he's able to memorize and understand their choreo the quickest due to his years of training.

— always manages to lose at games beacuse he has zero luck.

— he's terrified of being hated. it stems from his mother and her constant words of hatred towards him.

— even though it's normally custom for the older one to eat first in korea, he always makes sure to serve the younger ones first in order to dispel any feeling of hierarchy within the group.

— he doesn't go home during the holidays and instead, spends time with the foreign members who also are unable to go home.

— he always tells the members it's okay not to do something when they're on variety shows if it's dangerous or it makes them uncomfortable.

— when he first found out he would be the leader, he bought a book on parenting.

— his pet peeve is when someone condescendingly pushes his forehead back with their finger or smacks the back of his head.

— he gets cold really easily. esp his hands, feet, and ears.

— during his trainee years, he was known as the practice addict.

— as a leader, he wants to be strong for s so even though he's emotional, he refuses to let s see him cry. he'll usually hide in the bathroom to cry or cry in the shower.

— he actually has nicely defined abs but gets shy about showing his body.

— he likes watching s' vlives but gets embarrassed when they tune in for his.

— spends a lot of his free time memorizing the raps of their songs and is always excited to "perform" it in front of the group rappers. he has been judged many times by chanwook.

— a1 is his family.  


INCORRECT QUOTES

– joowon : if you have an opinion on my rapping, please raise your hand
– member : [ raises hand ]
– joowon : now put it over your mouth

– member : why is your back all scratched up?
– joowon : [ remembering chasing a raccoon after being told not to ]
– joowon : i'm having an affair

– member : quick! we need an adult!!
– joowon : i'm an adult
– member : quick!! we need a different adult!!

– member : our leader is so wise. i wonder what's going through his mind right now.
– joowon's mind : when i blow air like 'haah' it's warm, but when i blow it like 'hooh' it's cold

– joowon : we're out of candy
– member : what? already? but there's only been like three kids
– joowon : yeah, i know, but one little boy told me he loved me so i just gave him everything

– member : [ throws a piece of popcorn at joowon who's playing on his phone ]
– joowon : [ picks up popcorn and eats it ]
– member : [ throws another popcorn ]
– joowon : [ eats the popcorn again ] not that i don't like being fed but why are you throwing popcorn at me?
– member : manager hyung wouldn't take me to the petting zoo so this is the next best thing

– maknae : mom what's a 69
– joowon : well son, a 69 is when two people, who love each other very much, get together with a 6 and a 9 and a 5 6 7 8 [ spotlight turns on ] [ breaks into a jazz number ]

– joowon and co leader scolding a member
– joowon : we're not mad, just disappointed
– bloodstone : no we're mad
– joowon : yes, we're mad. we're livid.
– joowon : but we're going to let this one slide
– bloodstone : no we're not
– joowon : i'm not a mind reader, [bloodstone]

– jasung : describe our relationship in two words
– joowon : our what?


JOOWON SAYS

— "i love rap but rap doesn't love me"
— "AAAAAFSJDKFJSDKFA" "why is joowon hyung screaming?" "oh, bts sunbaes dropped another mv." "yOONGI SUNBAENIMFSKDJFSKDFJD"
— "i just ,, i'm not sure if i'm good enough. to be a leader, to be a hyung, to be here."
— "whoa whoa wait wait!! it's cold outside! you need a jacket!!"
— "don't worry about me. i feel full just watching you guys eat."
— "please don't say goodbye ,, i hate goodbyes ,,"
— "you guys ,, you're my family. i've never really known what having a family felt like before but now ,, i don't want to let this go."
— "i ,, i don't know how to be selfish ,, i don't know how to reach out and keep a tight grip on what i want."

 
     RELATIONSHIPS  
 
  
SKZ x TREASURE x TXT
since he trained with the three groups, he created a close bond with each of them and he does his best to stay in contact with all them even after splitting ways. when he's given the chance at music broadcasts, he loves running over to greet them and catch up for a few minutes before he's called back by his manager. there is a little pang of regret in his heart as he sees how well they're doing and how succcessful they have become or are becoming. it feeds into his thought of "i really wasn't good enough to be here with them" and it silently eats away at him. of course, he never speaks of that insecurity with them. he'd much rather spend life caught up in happy moments than resting in the sad. it's hard to hang out outside of work due to their busy schedules but he does like to call them up when they're free and just ask about group dynamics and get advice on how to cater to s or just be a better leader. 
 
  
KWON HYEON
group member
joowon has a bit of a hard time controlling hyeon, always hesitant to say something if hyeon has stepped out of line or is in need of any sort of parental scolding. the boy is still young so joowon wants to take care of him and guide him down the right path. he still stays very gentle towards the younger boy, offering advice without being too pushy and critical. hyeon can tend to act a bit spoiled but joowon unconsciously adds to that behavior, being quite lenient with him unless he goes too far. joowon always makes sure to praise the boy and play around with him, letting him do whatever he wants as long as it's within reason. there can be some times when hyeon takes the leader for granted but ultimately, joowon will always be there for him, wishing only the best for the younger. in his own time, joowon also learns to speak up and make sure hyeon can grow to become aware of his actions or just sit down and talk about deeper problems, rooted in past hurt. 
 
  
WOO JIWOO
group member
joowon can always rely on jiwoo to make him feel calm and loved. it's almost impossible for the two to not get along considering their personalities and how similar they are. of course, jiwoo is a lot more honest and clumsy than joowon but that part of him only makes him more endearing. being around jiwoo makes joowon feel like a real hyung, grateful to be able to take care of someone and feel appreciated in return. when it's just the two of them together, the vibe is very relaxed and calm, neither of them too loud or wildly energetic in the first place. joowon always makes sure to check in jiwoo and knowing how much the other appreciates quality time, he does his best to hang out with him, even when they're just sitting on opposite ends of the room, doing their own thing. since jiwoo is a new member, joowon constantly worried that he would feel awkward or left out so he was always paying attention to him when he first joined, doing his best to make him feel welcomed.
 
  
PARK NAMSUN
group member
although joowon loves all the members and strives to be close with all of them, he can't deny that he feels closest to namsun. their personalities seemed to mesh extremely well together and although they're the same age, joowon feels like he can depend on namsun and lean on him when things are rough. of course, he was a bit intimidated by the other when they first met. the two gave off completely different vibes, after all. but as time passed and they trained together, joowon found that the boy was very friendly and they shared many deep conversations after practicing late at night. it wasn't until joowon had to say goodbye to yet another trainee that the two of them became really close. joowon had hidden himself in the bathroom, trying to force himself to stop crying, when namsun opened the door. the two spent the whole night talking and after that, they seemed to be inseparable. they would eat together, practice together, etc. and when joowon became the group's leader, he knew namsun had his back and could rely on him to help lead when he couldn't speak up. 
 
COLLABS WELCOME
 
 
     THE IDOL  

 
 
 
PLOTLINE turquoise
BACKUP bloodstone


STAGENAME + REASON joowon + he decided to keep his real name because he was worried that creating a stage name might create a separate persona. he didn't want people to separate his idol image from his real image. rather, he wants people to know that the person they see on camera is the very same person behind cameras too.

PERSONA y cutie


TALENT TWINS 
vocal ; pentagon jo jinho
dance ; ab6ix jeon woong
talking ; ab6ix jeon woong
aegyo ; treasure kim junkyu ; one two


PREDEBUT EXPERIENCES
despite his excited heart to finally become a trainee and get a step closer to reaching his dreams, he found that he would struggle a lot more than he had anticipated. he met and lost many people, the road to stardom hardly easy and certain. every time he lost a friend, whether they never made the lineup or was let go by the company, he found that he hated the word "goodbye." he hated the idea of parting. it soon became a quiet fear of his. until everything was certain and set in stone, it was hard for him to reach out and create relationships with others, terrified that he would have to part ways with them in the future and thought he could save himself the heartbreak.
→ trained with stray kids members while under jyp
→ trained with treasure box trainees while under yg
→ was part of the line up for txt but got cut near the end while under bighit
→ was a backup dancer for bts during his bighit trainee years 

TRAINEE YEARS
2 years at jyp, 3 years at yg, 1 year at bighit, 2 years at fantagio
 
 
     MY RIDE OR DIE  

LOVE INTEREST wang jasung 왕자성

BACKUP i don't mind matchmaking! even if it's one sided or not endgame!
FACECLAIM tbz lee juyeon

CURRENT RELATIONSHIP STATUS acquaintances

PERSONALITY jasung is a nice contrast to joowon. he's outspoken and has a very friendly attitude that makes people feel quiet comfortable around him even if it's a first meeting. perhaps it's because of his job working as a server, but he has great people skills. it also helps that he has the charm and confidence to approach others without any nerves holding him back. he does tend to be quite impulsive with his actions but he only really acts out when he thinks someone is in need of his assistance. his outspoken trait can also make him quite blunt and fearless when dealing with anyone rude but it also has a tendency to get him in trouble when he speaks his mind. normally, people would say that he's a fairly nice boy who has a knack for getting into trouble but it's all out of a good heart. he also tends to be a bit flirtatious and teasing but that side of him only comes out around joowon. of course, underneath all that confident attitude, he's really a big softie who melts so easily for the one he's whipped for.

FIRST MEETING
their first meeting wasn’t anything quite special. jasung was an employee at a small little restaurant near the company and joowon had decided to give the place a try, starving after spending hours perfecting the dance he had learned. perhaps it was just a coincidence or perhaps it was all fate. maybe the stars had aligned for everything to occur the way it did.
the restaurant stayed open late into the night, catering to people who craved a snack past dinner hours and joowon happened to be the only customer inside. jasung, son of the restaurant owners, was left alone to close up, able to handle the night hours with ease due to the slower business. it was nearing midnight and it was just the two of them.
the minute joowon had stepped into the restaurant, jasung couldn’t deny that the boy was pretty. very pretty. even as he stood behind the register while joowon looked over the menu, engulfed in a sweatshirt far too big for him, jasung couldn’t seem to look away.
“do you have anything you’d recommend?”
“huh?” he was broken from his trance as joowon spoke, his voice gentle and soft, a perfect match to his appearance. “oh- yeah, i recommend the braised pork ribs- wait, actually, our kimchi stew is a popular classic- unless you don’t like spicy food? then i’d say that the banquet noodles are a good choice-?” he wished he would stop talking. normally, jasung was quite confident and able to carry himself with his head held high but for some reason, he felt the slightest bit flustered and had come off looking like a rambling idiot.
lucky for him, joowon let out a little laugh, preventing him from talking further.
“mm, i’ll just have the cheapest thing on the menu. i forgot that i only have ten dollars on me.”
with a nod, jasung disappeared into the kitchen and joowon took a seat at a table. getting lost in cooking the food, he ended up cooking much more than a one person serving and headed back out with tray in hand — only to see the tired joowon dozing off, arms crossed as his head kept bobbing down. oh , jasung thought. he was cute as hell.
carefully shaking the other awake, he couldn’t help but take notice of how thin the other felt in his grasp. “ah- s sorry-“ joowon stammered as he sat up, rubbing his eyes to try and wake himself up a bit. a sheepish flush on his face, he looked up to see the tray of food and couldn’t help but stare in blatant shock. “th-that- i is this really the cheapest? i-“
jasung cleared his throat, determined to override his previous idiotic first impression. “oh, we just had a lot of ingredients leftover and if we don’t use it, we usually end up throwing it out so i thought it’d be better to put it to use rather than throwing it out. besides, a hearty meal is key to having a healthy body.”
joowon’s eyes were still wide, looking like a child on christmas morning [jasung’s mind: wtf he’s so ing cute i’m gonna die] and he looked back up at the other. “i’m not sure i can finish all this- would it be strange to ask you to join me?”
this was it, jasung thought. this was the universe telling him he could take a chance with this stranger. “let me just tidy up the kitchen and i’ll be right back then. i skipped dinner today anyways.”

DEVELOPMENT / LOVE STORY 
the restaurant quickly become joowon’s go-to spot for meals and they soon became acquainted, eating late dinners together after his practice hours. jasung found out the boy was two years younger than him and a trainee, even going out of his way to deliver food to the company practice rooms if needed. he was quick to become fond of the boy and treasured the moments they were able to spend together. they weren’t close enough to exchange numbers and talk outside of the restaurant but whenever they were together, it was a very comfortable atmosphere and jasung quickly broke out of his flustered idiot image and adorned his usual confident, playful one.
he noticed the way joowon would avert his gaze when he was a bit too close or the way the tips of his ears would turn red whenever jasung attempted to flirt. it didn’t take long for jasung to realize he was developing a crush on the younger boy and the endearment he experienced whenever joowon was around was much more than one simply felt for a sweet acquaintance.
however, the two weren’t able to spend much time together as joowon was nearing debut and even moreso after he officially became an idol. all jasung could do was support him from behind a screen and pray that joowon would find the energy to come for a bite at the restaurant.
things seemed to be going nowhere when joowon burst into the restaurant one night, eyes wide and out of breath as if he had been running. seeing how concerned jasung looked, he explained that his mom had come to find him. before jasung could even ask why he was running, the door opened and joowon’s mom stepped in.
“what the hell is this?” she waved an envelope of money in her hands as she stepped closer to joowon. jasung stood behind the cash register, unsure if he should get involved in family business but he made sure not to leave the room in case anything went wrong. he had never seen joowon so rigid and tense before.
“you debut and this is all you send home? you’re just telling me and your father to die, aren’t you? ungrateful brat. you’re the same. so useless after all i’ve done for you. it makes me sick to know you’re my son.”
if murder was legal, the woman would have been dead and in a ditch. jasung was livid, rage boiling in him as joowon had to hear such hateful words being spit at him. he was just about to storm over when joowon’s voice made him pause.
“did i ever ask you to have me?”
“what was that?”
joowon finally raised his head, tears threatening to spill from his glistening eyes as his hands were clenched into trembling fists at his side. he was shaking at the thought of speaking up but he felt as though he would die if he didn’t at least say something.
“did i ask you to give birth to me? i don’t know what i did to make you hate me so much but i’m not a punching bag you can use whenever you feel angry about your life. i’m not the one to blame for your problems!”
the second the last word left his lips, the room was filled with the sound of a deafening slap. that was the last straw. jasung ran over and stood in front of joowon, shielding him from this demonic exuse of a mother.
“leave. or i’ll call the police.” his voice was low, his words and obvious threat as his glare remained even.
a scoff left the woman’s lips, as if in disbelief at the scene in front of her. “who’re you? what the hell do you think you are to get involved?” noticing how he failed to answer, she simply rolled her eyes. even as she turned to leave, she had the audacity to remind joowon to send more money the following month.
the second she was gone, jasung whirled around to check on joowon, heart shattering to see the wet streak of tears staining the boy’s reddened cheek. without saying a word, he enveloped the smaller male into his arms and as he felt him trembling in his embrace, he hugged him even tighter.
he hated seeing joowon so broken like this and he hated himself even more. he hated the fact that he was unable to respond to the question, unsure of what he really was to joowon. unsure if he even had the right to be stepping in the middle of his family life. he wanted to be more. he wanted to be able to be in a position where he could confidently say he had the right to protect him.
“joowon ,, can i become someone more important in your life?”
he knew it was selfish of him. joowon was an idol, he had other worries and things to attend to. how could he ask to suddenly be in his life? he knew it was selfish but he couldn’t seem to hold back. he wanted to be there for the male, to hold him like this when he was hurting. god, how many times had he struggled alone? how many times was he forced to pick himself back up with no one there to offer a hand?
the question was left unanswered but as the days went by, joowon became more conscious of jasung and his feelings. he wasn’t sure if he had the right to even long for jasung. he wasn’t sure if he was allowed to have someone special all to himself. but his heart ached for it’s missing piece.

FUTURE DEVELOPMENT
after the implied confession, joowon seemed to be extra flustered around jasung. being aware of the other’s feelings made him nervous, not because he was uncomfortable but because he couldn’t figure out his own heart yet. they seemed to have fallen back to a place of no development. it would just be subtle flirting from jasung and quiet panic from joowon.
of course, the more joowon thought about it, the more he realized jasung was on his mind. he seemed more distracted, even to s and when he confessed his dilemma to them, they did their best to try and help him realize his feelings.
he couldn’t deny that he did like the older boy, very much so. but as much as he wanted to go to him, his insecurities and hurt held him back. it wasn’t until joowon visited the restaurant one night to see jasung standing outside with a girl. they were laughing and as he watched the smile on jasung’s face, he couldn’t help but feel a knot of discomfort in his stomach. before he even knew what he was doing, his feet were marching him right over to the two and he reached out to take jasung’s hand.
luckily, he was wearing a mask and had his jacket hood over his head so the girl couldn’t recognize him easily. the sudden action had jasung startled. joowon had never initiated anything between the two of them and he couldn’t help but feel a dumb smile growing on his face. with a quick apology to his friend, he dragged joowon to the back of the restaurant to keep him from being found out.
“is something wrong?” he raised a brow as joowon took his mask off, noticing a pink flush on his cheeks.
“who was she?”
the question was so quiet that he almost missed it. thankfully he didn’t and he had to bite down on his lip to keep himself from smiling too much.
“ah, her? she’s my friend’s girlfriend. she was just stopping by to ask me to prepare some food for his surprise birthday party.”
he paused, gazing at joowon who seemed to be wallowing in utter embarrassment at the misunderstanding.
“were you ,, jealous?”
it was all too obvious that he was right. joowon immediately froze, looking like a deer caught in headlights as his face reddened in fluster. he was left in a panic as he tried to collect his thoughts, taking a little breath as if to calm himself down long enough to speak.
“i ,, i know i don’t have any right ,, you’re your own person so it’s not like i own you. but when i saw you smiling with her, i just ,,, ,” joowon sighed, as if frustrated with the way he was explaining himself. “i’m ,, sorry. for being jealous ,,
jasung’s heart was ready to burst. he could hardly contain the happiness exploding within him as joowon spoke. he wasn’t sure if this was a confession or just a step in the right direction but he was just so overwhelmed with emotion from the words of admittance.
“can i kiss you?”
“h huh?”
“i just suddenly really want to kiss you.”
“i- i don’t know how ,,,”
“so that’s not a no?”
joowon paused and then shook his head, voice a shy whisper. “it’s not.”
. jasung thought he might die as he stepped closer. “well then, i’ll teach you.”
his voice was gentle as he cupped joowon’s cheek, leaning in to press his lips against the other’s. it was beyond endearing, the way he could feel how nervous and shy joowon was as he struggled to meet jasung’s height.
“w-wait,” joowon suddenly pulled away, face a bright red as he brought a hand to cover his lips. “y your tongue ,,”
“i said i’d teach you, didn’t i?” jasung wished he could engrave this image into his mind. the way joowon’s face was so flushed and how his eyes seemed to shine so purely under the moonlight. “can i continue?” he whispered out the question, making sure to be as gentle with his words and actions, not wanting to make joowon uncomfortable in the slightest.
the idol nodded and jasung thought he could die without regrets in that very moment.

INTERACTIONS & OTHER
through jasung, joowon learns that he is someone that is able to be loved, that he's someone that can be put first in another's life. jasung breaks down all of joowon's insecurities with patience and kindness. no matter how much he teases the boy to evoke a cute reaction, he makes sure joowon knows his words are sincere. joowon does feel a pang of apology whenever he's with jasung, feeling as though he made jasung do everything, jumping over all the hurdles in their relationship while joowon hides away in his little cage of insecurities but jasung always reminds him that he'll always be there to take the first step until joowon is ready to.
they have a very sweet relationship and even the people around them can tell there are special feelings just dying to be set free. 
once they start dating, they become even sweeter and much more clingy. basically an eyesore to the single folk who are salty about being alone. 
jasung respects joowon's job as an idol and always sends messages of support. to make up for their lack of time together, joowon tries to go over to jasung's place as much as he can whenever he's free or having a vacation. they do their best to talk about their thoughts and emotions to avoid misunderstandings and hurt in their relationship.

ENDING STATUS happily dating ; A ;

TRIVIA
— they can never kiss for too long because joowon literally goes weak in the knees.
— since joowon never went home on the holidays anyways, he stays at jasung's place instead of being alone in the dorms.
— joowon's nickname is princess and jasung's is prince. just like joowon, if you take his last name and the first part of his first name, you get "wangja" which means "prince" in korean.
— joowon gets hella embarrassed if the two of them are caught doing skinship by s.
— sometimes jasung goes to music performances to cheer joowon on from the audience.
— the members have begged jasung to teach joowon how to properly cook or just always deliver food so they don't have to eat the mess that joowon calls food.
— joowon's contact name in jasung's phone is "my princess" and jasung is saved as "my prince" in joowon's phone.
— they can't video call because the a1 members always barge in and embarrass joowon so he refuses to do it anymore.
— jasung lets joowon stay after restaurant hours just so they can have time alone. it doesn't matter how late it is.
— when joowon playfully tries to get jasung jealous by fanboying over suga, he's easily overpowered by the other and ends up regretting it as he's buried in kisses.
— sometimes jasung will pull up joowon's fancams while they're together and joowon gets extremely flustered, especially when jasung starts teasing him about how he's so different on stage.
— joowon usually speaks formally to jasung so when he calls him hyung for the first time, jasung's heart is ready to explode.
 
 
 
     THE FUTURE AWAITS  

FUTURE EXPERIENCES
→ releases vocal covers on youtube ( 1 2 3 4 5 )

SCANDALS n/a

SONG RECOMMENDATIONS n/a

FANTAGIO EXPERIENCES n/a

IF ORIGINAL MEMBER: HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE NEWEST 7 MEMBER ADDITIONS? he takes a moment to answer, wanting to be careful with his words and collect his thoughts before he speaks. it's ,, i suppose it's a little bittersweet? there were many other trainees that we had practiced alongside that wanted to be a part of the lineup so when i think of those friends having lost their chance and then suddenly gaining completely new members, it's a bit difficult. of course, i don't resent the new ones. they're probably just as desperate to debut and reach their dreams like the rest of us so i can't hate them for trying to cling onto a chance to finally debut. i'm just a bit concerned about how the dynamics will work out. the time we've spent together as a whole group isn't long and it feels like two different puzzle pieces are being forced together to fit. i just hope we can quickly learn to be understanding and considerate so we're able to become one family and run the race together instead of against each other. 

COMMENTS & REQUESTS hELP i feel like this bub is so plain and boring compared to everyone else's apps ;; i was literally so stuck on the love interest part !! ! i couldn't decide between suga, namsun, chanwook, or an oc so i'm not sure how pleased i am with that section :' ) jk nvm after brainstorming i now want to write a oneshot on their fluffy first time jskdjfkjsdf i'm soft for them

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sweetch3rry
#1
a softie and comedic leader~ i adore
kamihimechi
#2
cRyINg over Joomoney xD