status update:

as some of yall might know, i've been gone because i have ty/little-to-no wifi in china. i also can't write too much because i usually write on google docs and my vpn is... not too great lol (i mean, it's good, but slow wifi s up vpn speed too ;;).

in any case, i've also been stressing about summer classes for college (optional but i do want to get them done) and all my time is either used on that or reviewing calc/physics so i don't die when school starts again.

but that wasn't really my point.

my point is, over this month or so, i've realized that i used to depend on aff a lot for entertainment and general happiness or whatever. i compared myself to my aff friends and got caught up in drama and in general, i was too overwhelmed and it forced me into a months-long block. i was unhappy, even though i lied to myself and said i wasn't. the month of may and most of june, i busied myself with applyfics and characters, thinking i could maybe catch up with some of my friends. but making characters isn't my forte, and it was stupid of me to push it. i ended up getting sick of applyfics and aff in general and i think it was good that i became semi-inactive.

and the college work is catching up lololol. i've never pretended to be the smartest person, but recently i've been talking to other prospies, and they're all h e l l a more smart than me, and if i don't work hard, i am definitely going to be left behind. i've already made it into college, i desperately do not want to get kicked out.

i'm beating around the bush lol per usual. here it is plain and simple: i'm not going to be quite as active on aff anymore, including applyfics. i love them, but let's face it, most of us lose interest in writing them after a short while, and since most of them are never finished, there's no use sticking around hoping.

tl;dr: not gonna be around as much anymore (except for already active applyfics), don't miss me too much.

current and future works:

i have foolishly entered myself in two wholeass contests that i might not be able to fulfill. i also have a couple of applyfics still up that i might take down if i don't get enough apps, and i also have a hella bunch of ideas that i want to play with.

current stories:

the day the sky fell down: ftisland, seunghyun-centric; entered in the light and dark fantasy contest. i hate what i've already written, so i might end up going back and rewriting everything.

the summer of 1989: ftisland, hongki-centric; this was meant to be a shot at a mystery/flashback-y thing... personal project, a hella nice idea i had that might offend some people so i lowkey was scared to continue.

wind: ftisland, hongki/seunghyun; idk what inspired this, maybe just the song itself? personal project that ended up being way too ambitious for my addled mind. i'll definitely go back to it, but when...?

what remains in 1989: multiple, mostly myungsoo, howon, and naeun; entered in the 8th anniversary contest. i haven't started writing yet, but as for planning... i want it to be another mystery-esque one. it'll likely be shorter, but hopefully i can get it done?

current applyfics:

serenitea: slice-of-life, teenage angst?; collab with gabby in the midst of school. we said we'd return back, but we've yet to do so. i'd like to come back to it, though.

burn, baby, burn: hunger games au; i've gotten a few apps for this one but it's still mostly eh. i actually planned out a lot of it, except there's just no interest. i might draft and revamp this one.

inception: inception au; i was suddenly inspired to make this after i watched the movie. either no one's watched it, no one's interested in it, or no one trusts my ability to write it lol. i've drafted it, might revamp later.

rebellion: wuxia au; collab with annie because we had another one that failed. we both hella want to see this live, but we've gotten precisely zero apps and we've pushed the deadline back many times. we'll talk and depending on the situation, maybe we'll abandon it or revamp. idk.

vega: idol au, angst; idek what inspired this, but i loved it. my brainchild. many people seem to be interested, but so far i've only gotten one app. i don't want to draft her, maybe i'll just bump.

immediate future works:

you my folly: fantasy-medieval au, yoonkook; this is my first major breakthrough from the aforementioned months-long block. it's on paper because i don't have access to docs and so far, it's at 34 book-pages. it'll likely be short as well.

illusion of the gods: wuxia au, original characters; aimed to be my first 'real' original story. i've had this in making for a long time but i never had the confidence or inspiration to start.

the way we bleed: fantasy, original characters; i took the title, with permission, from a friend who used to be on aff but mostly does art. idk what sort of story i want, even though i did 'plan' one. i'll likely just change the plan though.

bluebell creek: angst, baekxing; i planned this out in junior year and never got around to it. i meant for it to be a... something against the dangers of greed or smth? ah, young ambition.

continuing works (hopefully):

* a lot of these are drafted btw lol i just linked whatever i wanted

asteria online: sao au, yabu kota-centric; i planned this one when i first got into hey say jump. i also tried to stuff way too much content into it, and considering hsj is an entire nine-person group, i definitely need to change my plan.

invictus: fantasy/sci-fi, ansyung; i think i was inspired by the movie 'i am legend'... or at least the monsters were. it's supposed to be a vampire-ish au where they have to survive and... yeah, it's hella 'i am legend'.

override: sci-fi, ansyung; this is my best bet of inserting my background in information technology into my writing uwu sob. i loved the idea and planned it until halfway through, up to which point i didn't know what to do anymore.

sunset cafe: slice-of-life, baekxing; i wrote july and was hella satisfied and started this one in the euphoria of the rush. i no longer know what i want from it, but i want to continue it.

undying glory: fantasy, woohyun-centric; inspired by a creepy dream i had. i also have no ing clue what i want from it. maybe i'll revamp.

five of spades: fantasy/mafia, kyuwook; ah, my last attempt at a kyuwook masquerade thing. my last kyuwook story in general. i, uh... don't know what i want with this.

before the dawn: fantasy, hogyu; i took the idea from this and inserted it into aforementioned 'the day the sky fell down'. haha. yeah. idk what i want with it either.

sand, waves, and sea: ancient au, oc x idol; i meant for this to be a mystery thing where the reader had to wait to find out the idol's identity at the end, but i stopped planning it and even i forgot who the idol was supposed to be.

as you can see, i have a lot of my plate. not just a lot; a ass ton. thankfully, my current works should all be on the shorter side, and i'll probably have time to revamp my older stories and work on my new ones too.

i would be much obliged if no one stole any of my ideas, and if you see one that you're particularly interested in or want to see written, feel free to pm me about it. (you're also welcome to pm me to help me get inspiration for any of them, bounce ideas around, etc.)

ending statement:

i think i've said all that i wanted to say. i'll still be on often (because i have a few applyfics to keep up with), but don't expect me to talk much. mostly, i'll be focusing on gathering my addled brain together, sewing my intelligence into my head, and writing on my own schedule. it's so much work keeping up with the kpop scene nowadays, including aff, and i just don't have the time or energy to do so.

wishing everyone the best, and if there ever was a chance to cut me off, this is the chance. (i'd appreciate if you at least told me before you did it, though.) good luck and godspeed. my instagram is @muwugster007 (cringe, i'm changing it after august 7), follow me/talk to me if you wish, just make sure to mention that you're from aff.

uwu.