Crying to Sleep
Last night, I did it again
When I thought I would never did the same thing ever again
But all of a sudden the feelings just got me
I just wanted to cry
So I cried
Feeling the familiar tears running down my face
Hugging my whole body and curled up at the corner of my bed
I cried to sleep after so long
But there was something different
I did not know why I cried
I just wanted to
While listening to Billie's songs
And when my favorite song of hers came up
when the party's over just really mirrored my heart so much
So much that tears just came down naturally
I found my hand landed at the back of my head
Slowly, I rubbed it gently
Like telling myself
I love you, you did well
One thing that came up in my mind was him
Maybe it's really the time to let go
He is not mine to begin with anyway
But every little thing that he did affect me so much
That lately every songs and movies are about him
I'm giving up on you, let me let you go
Please don't play with my heart again, it hurt when you hang up on me
Please let me easily see you as just a friend
Please don't give your attention and time to me again, when you are the same as everyone else
I like it when you are next to me, but I know you will leave me too
Nothing is better sometimes, drowning in tears is better sometimes
I just want to cry, that's all
And I will try hard to keep my smile on for everybody to see
Although I just want to cry
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