Lots of things happened today

Excitement, fear, sadness, and happiness

But when I went back to the dorm

All of those feelings vanished

Leaving me with this unknown emptiness in my heart

That keeps me awake at this hour

When my roommates are all fast asleep

I can't describe this

I'm not happy, but I'm not really sad either

I don't know what this feeling is called

When I see something that usually makes me laugh, but tonight I can't even smile although I'm staring at it for so long

When I need to do something, but my mind keep rejecting it

When my head feels so light that makes me wonder what's going on with the voices in my head that suddenly stop interrupting me for the moment

When I want to talk to someone but don't even know what I am going to talk about

I don't understand, I really don't

But I just want to write something

So I can remind myself that I'm still alive