Hi everyone, long time no see~

So I know I've been gone for the majority of this year and first of all I want to apologise for my sudden absence without notifying any one of you (okay I did but I came back on and off which is I know, extremely rude). 

The reason was because I was buried under piles of work from school, and like, next year (the upcoming year) I'm gonna sit for my GCSEs, which is a . School has just gotten so much more tense and stressful and just overwhelming in a whole, so I didn't have much time to come on here :') 

And even if I did I didn't have the strength to write anything or just chat in general so...yeahhh

Anyways I'm really sorry. I meant it.

I wanted to write a blogpost after I at least update something, and thankfully I did, but it took longer than expected so yeah...here is my half-assed apology after a long time.

Also I haven't been feeling well these days; school is so stressful and so everything, plus I got stuck with this of a teacher who is basically a dictator and God bless me I managed to put up with her for a year.

And in the summer I got hit with the familiar sensation of summer melancholy so there's that :')

Now I managed to pull myself together for a short time to write this; I've been falling apart for these days too so I'm not in the best condition but hey I'm here

Anyways, yeah. That's the reason I wasn't so active here; I couldn't really socialise because I was afraid what I was going to say will end up being venting and trash-talking and so much of myself that will eventually drown out other people's words

I also realised that I couldn't write. It's so hard for me to write something, anything decent even though I had all sorts of ideas flying around. Even though I updated, the last half of that ty story was ty. You got to admit that.

School's going to start in less than two weeks and already I'm feeling the stress because HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. I haven't finish anything and I'm slowly breaking apart again, plus I have this script to memorise by saturday. So yeah, holy cow.

I probably will be on and off again in asianfanfics, which includes me popping up at random times and disappearing again. If you want to find me, pm me and I'll give you my email. Though I don't respond to messages or emails from friends lately either so...yeah. But there's a higher chance of me being able to contact anyone from that.

Right now I think the only things I'll be working on will be Insanity Ties, and maybe one applyfic or two for my hyung. I'm working on this hugeass play and another two stories (one BL for relaxing and another murder-mystery also gay thing) in real life now, so I'm going to be busy. PLUS GCSEs for subjects I absolutely loathe. 

I'm working on this play rn and if anyone wants to read it, again DM me and I MIGHT let you read it (because it's like 1/1000000 done) 

Anyways thank you so much for not being like WTF when I pop up suddenly, I really like this community and chatting with the really friendly people here, so I'm going to be selfish and say I hope my place in this lovely circle of people won't disappear. <3

Thank you so much <33333