hello friends

welcome to

JOOHYUN AND HIS TY, MESSED UP LIFE !!

and i know you guys are like 'uh huh, joo, you can't be that messed up'

i wouldn't say i'd describe my life as sob-story worthy, but i mean, it's my life. and it's made me the way i am. so i guess it's kinda important??

well, let's begin !!

when i was was born into my family of four, i was (not being cocky) the apple of my family's eye because well, i was a pretty adorable child. and i was the youngest

and my sister .

(she still does lol)

no but seriously she was fine with it. she didn't want the attention. so unfortunately, i got it !

anyway, as i got older all the attention kinda became this burden

and idk if this is racist or not but i'm asian. more specifically korean. and we take this study seriously.

as in like, really seriously.

i became extremely obsessed with my grades, my profile as a student. cause that was my worth as a human in my family.

and now, looking back, as terrible as this sounds, was i obsessed by how i seemed as a smart kid, or was it my mom?

i was in new york this last week to visit her and uh, yeah, we're not on the best terms. long story.

ANYWAY

before i entered high school my mom had me apply for three schools 

Phillips academy (andover), Phillips exeter, and deerfield academy

for those of you who don't know those are three extremely prestigious boarding schools in the east coast.

no, my parents didn't hate me

no, i wasn't a trouble maker

these boarding schools are literally some of the best high school in america. they were literally screaming opportunity

and i got into all three.

and i ended up going to none of them

you might be asking why.

good question!

i just wasn't really interested in any of them. sure, they were nice, they were fancy, they were like a free ticket to an ivy league for me. 

but i didn't go.

and my mom still tells me daily about how i should've taken the chance.

but i'm still like 'nahhh'

so i went to torrey pines high school. and i was happy. and then i realized that i like guys too !!

being biual is great right?

lol not in my family

my whole coming out story wasn't that dramatic. my dad was like ''lol ok"

and my mom...blew up

but we're all good now so it doesn't really matter

(we're not all good)

and then my parents got divorced (real fun)

to this day i wonder if it was my fault. as if me coming out somehow made things harder for them. i'll probably never know.

so then my senior year rolled around and i got accepted to two colleges of my dreams

harvard and stanford

and a normal person would be like 'wow harvard, let's pick that'

but as i mentioned earlier. i kinda make strange choices

SO I PICKED STANFORD !! yayyy

and so here i am as a stressed out medical student with lots of family issues but who cares about that?

but wait, there's more

my first girlfriend was in my freshman year of college (didn't date in hs)

and she was great

(dw gracie gave me permission to talk about her)

yeah...and then she kinda was like 'yeah bye, there's this other really hot korean guy over here who's also super sweet and amazing'

so THAT happened

and i kinda went into this weird phase of trying to figure out what i wanted in my life, what i wanted to be, what i wanted to become. not just as a badass doctor, but as a person.

and then all the sudden i was acheiving everything i wanted for myself

AND I MET GRACIE *throws confetti*

yeah my life isn't eventful 

but it

my mom is trying to convince me i'm straight (lol no, just no) and she has cancer on top of that

i come off a lot as a really happy guy.

and i do like to consider myself a fairly positive person...but idk i can't always be that way

so to end this off

i kinda want to do a q&a about me

so if you have questions just comment

okay byeee