to be completely honest

i'm not one to complain a lot (or at least that's what i like to think) but uh, here i am to complain.

so my mom's currently in the hospital (not going to elaborate on what's going on, but like, it's not that serious...yet) but basically on monday i get to drop everything and go to new york and take care of her.

if you're thinking there are other family members to help...there isn't. my oldest sister is really busy with work, and my parents are divorced, so, no dad or boyfriend/step-dad to help her.

so i'm the one who has to.

don't get me wrong, i love my mom, but as some of you know, i'm biual, and uh, let's just say my mom's a little...conservative. she's constantly telling me that because i'm dating a girl, i'm straight.

that's not how it works.

being around her stresses me out, because not only is she confused about my uality, but she's super stubborn and so taking care of her is a pain because she wants to do everything her way.

and on top of that i can't even go with gracie because it's all so sudden and she has work and jsjsjsdsnd

so, to be honest, i'm super stressed out but just gotta keep moving forward, right? i'm mentally exhausted, because i'm the type to get stressed easily.

and why is the kid who can't turn on the stove or make food taking care of his mom? i still don't understand.

to be completely truthful, i'm scared of what's going to happen when i'm gone. there's only so much i can do for gracie when i'm half-way across the country.

i'm tired. i'm stressed. i'm kinda all over the place. i'm emotionally unsteady. and i don't get to see my girlfriend for a week. great.

jsjnsdjsnd okay thanks for listening to my rant.

 

 

 

 

Back to Top ↑

Comments

You must be logged in to comment
Skyful_Poof #1
Firstly, I hope your mom gets well. And, I think she's just trying to protect you in her way?
Anyways, I hope things turn out alright. Stay safe~
sleepingprince #2
May your mom get well soon . I think your mom wanted to protect you from getting hurt because society's judgement can be really scary . The stigma is still there. Try to be understanding from her point because I think every parents will feel the same way. They love their child just maybe their way of expressing it might not be right . Try to spend more time with her , slowly get to know more about each other. Maybe as time passes, she will try to understand and accept you as well. Being there for her , when she needs , it's fillal piety and I think you did well by carrying out your responsibility despite everything.
CarysS #3
Hey your mom loves you but I guess she's old-school. She just wants the best for you. Give her time and try to talk to her about it. But take care of her and give her lots of love. Talk to her after she recovers. It's gonna be difficult but go for it. Also you are willing to take care of your mom even though it's frustrating (because you don't know if you can do it well) and that's great. You can do it. Hope everything works out and your mom gets well soon. Fighting
rainbowreader #4
You mother must love you so much that she wants to protect you from bad things from this world. She must be stressed too.When you go to see her don't talk about your girlfriend infront of her and just try to help her to get well. You can explain your situation to your girlfriend. Maybe if you spend time with her without talking about your uality selection your relationship with your mom will be good too. Sometimes everything gets better when you spread your love to your loving ones.
LilMinMinniexx #5
I'm sorry love. I hope things go well. You can always come at me if you need to vent and don't want to worry grace XD
Back to Top ↑