So tired...
I don't usually rant or complain on here because I like to brighten people's lives, not share the bad stuff in my life, but I don't have anyone in rl that I can talk to (⇀‸↼‶) And I really need to get some frustration out. So yeah... don't read any further if you just follow me for my cute silliness. This will definitely not be that.
Tonight my dad demanded something of mine he wanted, then got mad when I tried to say that I didn't want to give it to him because I don't have the money to replace it right now.
I ended up having to give it to him.
It's the third thing of mine he took today.
This is not a new thing. Anytime anyone in my family wants something of mine they just take it and if I get upset then I'm being ungrateful or bratty.
It makes me feel so freaking worthless that I can't even have a say in what happens to my own things.
I can't work because of some health problems I have so the only money I make is when my mom pays me to do her and my dad's laundry (which I have to do whether she pays me or not, along with all the other cleaning in the house), so I can't even replace most of the things that are taken.
I can't even begin to explain how bad I feel.
I fight through pain and not feeling well every day to do all the things they require of me, to then be treated like nothing.
I'm so tired.
It's times like this that I really battled between wanting to fight like hell to begin publishing books so that I can support myself and get away from them, or just giving up and not fighting to get better anymore.
I'm just so tired of it all
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