today, not only did fans lose an extremely talented singer, but also a couple lost their son, a sister lost her brother, a team lost their teammate, and the world's light grew a bit dimmer.

to say that shinee didn't touch my life would be a lie.  they're one of the few reasons why i got into kpop in the first place.  they were such an authentic team in my eyes, and that's what i loved about them.  their individual lights shone together as a group whether they were on stage or doing a variety show.  

we all get older, and naturally, other groups began to spark my interest, but that never stopped me from loving shinee, and jonghyun.  i remember hot times being one of the first kpop songs i was exposed to, and damn jonghyun could hit those high notes.

just knowing that he committed suicide makes my heart feel heavy.  i read his note.  you would never know that he was feeling those things.  my mind kinda flashed back to the letters i used to write.  i was really shaken up.

even with all of these things, and the coldness of reality kicking in, i know for a damn fact that jonghyun will rest in peace and paradise.  

goodbye, love.