Even as I write this, the news is still impossible to believe. I keep thinking that tomorrow I will wake up to a tweet or article saying that it was a hoax. That his death was fake and he still at home with his family or the members. 

Dearest Jonghyun, 

I cannot fathom the incomprehensible amount of pain you must have felt. To feel that everything was your fault and that the only escape was through death chills me to the bone. I speak for all Shaowls when I say that if we could have taken all your pain away, we would have graciously done so in order to see you truly happy. I can only hope that you are finally at peace within your heart and mind. Please know my dear Jonghyun, that you were greatly loved. You will continue to be loved and admired for generations to come. May you take your place among the angles and be gifted with your own wings. May you look down upon us and smile brightly knowing that you were so loved. 

Jonghyun, may you sing with the chorus of angels and become the brightest star in the sky.

With love, forever, S.I.R.

My heart felt condolences are extended to Jonghyun’s beloved sister, his mother, his friends, family, his dog Roo, and most ardently to the SHINee members. May they find comfort in each other during this devastating time. For not only have they lost a friend, but they have lost a confidant, a personal cheerleader, an emotional supporter, and most importantly, a brother. 

To my fellow Shawols, we have not lost Jonghyun, for he lives on in our hearts with his music. Let us do right by him and not morn his death, but rejoice that his pain has ended. Let us remember him for the loving person he is and how his music makes us feel. 

Instead of crying, let us sing. Instead of screaming, let us dance. Instead of frowning, let us smile. For we carry a piece of his beautiful soul within all of us. 

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

In respect for Jonghyun's passing, all fanfics in draft or in progress that has Jonghyun featured wil be placed on hold. Other fics with 2min or other OTP based that do NOT feature Jonghyun will be posted/updated after the new year in repect for the proper morning time. None of my completed fics will be removed or edited as I feel it is a tribute to his memory and the emotions he invoked in me and my writing. I have yet to decide if I will ever continue to write fics featuring Jonghyun, only time will tell if I will ever write for him again. 

Forever your faithful servant,

S.I.R.