I don't even know where to begin with this blog, other than "I should've noticed." I always thought he was just a sensitive guy who needed to be protected at all times.

Jonghyun had a voice. His voice wasn't just heard in songs, but was a voice that comforted people. He gave a voice for the people who was left behind. Except, we couldn't hear his own voice for help. He was a definite angel that didn't deserve to live in such a time when hatred was so alive.

I was a Shawol for 6 years. He wasn't my bias at first, but he sure found himself as my ultimate biaswrecker. His bright and mischievous attitude stuck with me. He was just someone who can make you smile just by seeing him.

When he smiled, I smiled.

When he laughed I laughed.

When he cried, I cried.

When he died... A part of me died aswell.

I can believe that he is gone, but I still cannot believe that he died by his own hands.

He died because he believed that he was lacking in music. That his skills were getting bumped down as he was getting older. The man, composed, produced and was- is the most iconic vocalist in K-pop.

Maybe we didn't praise him as much as he should've been. It's only 'till know that after he's gone his songs and abilitites were getting recognized.

He was a truly blessed soul. We were seperated by land and seas and now we're seperated by the Heavens. One day, I might join him. The only thing I can do now is remember him, no matter how much it'll hurt.

"I'll make everyone a promise. When you're sad, I'll try together with you. If you're happy, I'll be even happier for you. I'll do anything using my small, little effort and I'll stand beside everyone." - Kim Jonghyun.

My final message for Jonghyun is, that you were a star that shined on stage for a decade, now you're one of the SHINeeist stars of the skies.

You lived well.