*hugs you tight* Hey, I don't know you well but please, don't ever be sorry for existing. I understand the feeling of being not good enough is frustrating and it sometimes makes you want to disappear instead, but you know what, God never creates anything without purpose. I believe that. You are something! You are amazing! You are here and I know, you will grow into an awesome human being! ^-^ And if you wonder why does God keep giving those chances, it's because He loves you. And you are not too much coward to harm yourself. You don't do it because you also love yourself. And once again, I don't know you well but if you need ears to listen and words to comfort you when you are feeling down, you may consider me. I might not be able to help you directly but I'll be all ears. :)

Nah, once he made you he'll make sure you'll go on a journey that'll last for many many years. He just doesn't do stuff and then changes his mind. You're a treasure, a sensitive soul who needs to find the real purpose of your life. Your mom is someone who gave birth to you, yes but you're a whole different person, you're not a mom pleaser. Your purpose isn't to please, your life has just begun. It won't be easy but it'll be absolutely gorgeous like you are. When you'll grow up and be more mature, you'll see how your mom is only a person who to love but not to please. Take care of yourself, prepare yourself for the beautiful life you'll have and remember these comments. There will and are people who'll care no matter what. Now walk to the nearest mirror you have and say to yourself you're beautiful because I know you freaking are, babe. Chin up, stop apologizing and slay your life that it has just begun.