actually...i've prepared yet another random mixbag of a post...

but then SOMETHING happened...sigh...T^T,...

so i'm scraping off things/kiv them first to focus on the issue at hand...

oh but before that...nothing to do with the main topic....but...can we talk a bit about N.Flying and how awesome Jaekyung is?!

so...i like bands...but fnc is kinda too mainstream for me to yknow...love...so their bands didn't really get in my radar...but Jaekyung keep pulling me to give a try and more to N.Flying despite my lack of interest...by being the fabulous sister that she is...she's seriously like the biggest cheerleader for her bro...even when N.Flying debuted....Rainbow members all showed support...like...dude...the whole crew supporting their leader's bro's band...Rainbow is really like a big family where every members' family are their family too...i think they're all especially close to Jaekyung's family since her family's pretty public n outgoing like herself...today...i saw Jaekyung n Noeul hyping up N.Flying's showcase...posting multiple updates....and so...i had to check them out...

...seems they're getting a lot of attention from new fans from produce 101 hype since Hwiseung is the new member in the band...and will definitely be made utilized a lot for high notes...xD....he's one of the few top vocalists in the show that got ignored cuz everyone only notice kim jaehwan anyway(they did him dirty in 'Be Mine' battle with the weaker vocal team winning over his team who's like outstanding in vocals n dance just for the damn popular members in that winning team)...n ppl just see him for the humour he brought in...but still i hope ppl don't ignore other N.Flying members for just him like ugh....i can imagine how annoyed the originally fans of the band would be...you'd be annoyed too if you're in their place so...try not to act so annoying thanks....watching the ending makes it all worthy though...xD...such a plot twist...i have no regret watching this mv...hahaha....thanks to my Rainbow girls hyping up the comeback to actually get me off my laziness to give this a watch....but i'm finding it hard now to tell who's who...i mean not like i know them by looks that well...but i think i used to have a fav member but now i can't even tell which one he is...lmao...luckily they have diff hair colours...so with a lil guide i got from comment section...i could at least tell who's who in the mv....anyway...i'm so proud of my girls...i suddenly wish i have a sister or friend like Jaekyung...it'd be so awesome...she makes time for everyone and everything that she loves n i just find her passion and everything amazing n i love how they took family pic with jaekyung, her mom, her bro n noeul xD n the rainbow girls took pics with Hwiseung too....haa, ahjummafangirl mode on? lol.......i wish N.Flying all the best...though i'm not sure if they're in my radar...i mean...the song's alright...but having been a fan of nonmainstream bands...i don't get the same rush of excitement from idolbands sadly...nothing bout the status...maybe i just don't get the feel from fancy mvs(though the mv was really entertaining xD) n gotta watch more perfs...if i can motivate myself to....

okay done...this wasn't what i wanted to talk about in this post...

so...the thing is...i entered a random contest to win a signed CD...it's just harmless try...(hey i got lucky with ZE:A n Jewelry signed CDs some years back lol...bcuz surprisingly hardly anyone entered...so my competition were small)

but this time...i could see i had more competition and seeing my lack of amazing luck...i've already given up hopes...lt's okay...i had fun...

and it had been more than a week since the closing date...of the contest...and i've seen people asking about the result and another fan said that they usually only pm the winners...so if you don't get anything...that's to be understood...

i tried not to feel down...think of all the lucks you've had no matter how small...or unanticipated/unexpected/unimportant...you still had 'em....so be grateful...

but then...earlier today...i saw something shocking.

the agency actually posted the results...

and they decided to give signed CD to each and every participants...everyone wins...instead of randomly picked few they stated earlier!!! i was sooooooo surprised and floored!!! i mean....how did an idol agency be so generous?!!! i've received generosity from K-indie band...when the singer sent me a bunch of their CDs just for writing about them in my own blog or sth...i've received CD from a fanbase of a singer...just cuz i commented in their videos....but i've honestly never seen this kind of generosity from idol no matter how unpopular(or maybe i just am not that dedicated in idol fandoming to be aware of more similar circumstances..i'm only talking in comparison to other idols that i followed closely)...seriously...i mean yeah they hold contests and you win CD is pretty standard....but going out of their way to give everyone the prize....is like....whoaaa....what did i do to deserve such luck of stanning such awesome company n idol?

so i went sending my details and all...

but if you think that's where it stopped wait for it....after sending the details...they replied to my email...asking if i'm interested for live stream fansign event where they'd sign the CD for me in front of me n i can talk to them n so on yadayada like real fansign....like...whaaaaat....

that's scary tbh. too generous...but scary ...since...that'd mean...i'll be uhh...revealing myself to a bunch of viewers/total strangers and that doesn't sound appealing tbh...lol. (though i'm sure they invited everyone who participated as well) but when else will i get such gracious opportunity...from an idolgroup no less....and i might be able to use such opportunity to ask/suggest anything i have in mind directly...though i'm not sure if i'll be able to even talk seeing them talking to me(reminds me of ZE:A fansign...i was so starstruck i could hardly say anything n they probly talked to me more than i talked to them...i only manage to say something to Kevin n it was just shipper spazzing sugarcoated as me liking seeing kevkwang pics together...ugh...how embarrassing)

this group n their management really do a lot for the fans and go the extra mile...they're always giving to fans...in so many ways n if they keep being this nice...i might fall really hard as if i haven't already(and hardcore fandoming life is tiring...save meeeeehhhh)....props to their awesome agency...i'm really impressed and unfamiliar with such greatness....since we always see n hear the bad companies...

You know how great they are? The group had three former members...two officially left to pursue other things...one left and came back and left again without much of a notice...it was understood his dad back in China was sick...so he went home to look after his dad...and after awhile they had three new members and continued promotions...so it was assumed the member already left...but after the long silence...couple days ago the agency and their boss uploaded teasers for the member's solo debut...in China...and the old/original members who still remain in the group also showing their support to their (i assume) former member...and from how it looks...it seemed to me the agency probly had either set up a China based agency or joint venture with one to set up for the member's debut there...i'm so touched by how the agency handled the whole thing and how loyal and supportive the members are....this is a heartwarming thing to see in cutthroat world of kpop where betrayal is kinda the trending word these past years don't ya think? it's so nice to see the company n member involved in difficult situation worked through their issues together to make a positive outcome out of a problem...instead of running around, suing each other lawsuit or whatnot...i'm so impressed and honoured to like such a team...(pun unintended but...omg)

interested? teaser 1 : teaser 2

tbh...it's not my style of music...and i pray hard for my vav kids to not have this kinda music style cuz i might lose interest...lol. but i'll still wish for the best for him.

Anyway...should i or should i not accept this offer? hmm...i need to give an answer like real soon...and tbh...my mind is blank...i don't even know how this video chat thing works n even if i do...i really dread it...that's how i lost all the great job opportunities overseas that require those skype interviews...ugh...i'd rather fly there if i have to than these video thingy...not to mention the ones i've watched by other people in their previous chat sessions n shows like ASC....made me dread it even more...i really just don't see the appeal...and maybe i just find it really scary...seeing them face to face seem less scary than seeing through the video camera tbh...and i hate those lagging problems that make the whole thing just look funny/silly...and those waste of time over 'can you hear me' and speech that doesn't match video...and delayed response that's inevitable n so many more thingies i hate...i mean ugh...my connection isn't even anywhere near speedy or sth....

but then again...such an opportunity n generosity don't come easy.....

i'm really just so confused right now...

what should i do...sigh...

i can't believe my dilemma right now comes from getting luck that kinda went overboard/overwhelmed me for being so extra...

i'm still unsure what to do/decide...aarrrrggghhhhhhh....

well, let's end this with another of their perf....

i'm so happy to get happy dose from them again even though they already finished promoting...

and their colourfulness is blinding me...i love colours!!

a lil sad bcuz no fanchants...for some reason...now i'm just so used to hear their performance of this song with fanchants that it's become like part of the perf...

but i'm not sure if it's because i've seen this...: http://www.instagram.com/p/BXP521QluOq/?taken-by=ryansjhun

i just don't think i can keep a straight face watching Ziu now...xD

ok back to worrying over the decision....sigh...

whatever it is...i just hope it doesn't lead to regrets...T^T...