hi to whoever might read this,

I am the girl who uses this account so frequently but does not post much.

I don't know what's going on with me, that I am actually writing this but being on aff has great for me over the last 4 years, where I was about to enjoy reading amazing writing but beautiful authors which inspired to go back to write after a long break but as I started writing, I kept on getting blocks although I had details of the story in my mind.  It was suddenly where I realised, ah I have not made not even one friend on aff despite my awkward attempts which failed (not surprised). 

It has hit that I want to be me and continue writing but I am scared of comments that might break me down. I have so many authors, I look up to but I want to be me and be accepted as me. If I have to mention which author, I adore the most then it would be @seoul_lover. I swear her writing style is a bomb, it is soooo beautiful and artistic. I just love how descriptive and full of emotions her plots are. tbh, I can go on hours talking about how amazing her writing is but would weird, no?

to whoever is reading this, do you think I should have the courage and post my weird writing? tbh I post one chapter of Jaejoong story and I am very grateful to the two people that commented. But I lost all the courage after that. 

All I want is courage to be me and be accepted as me.

okay, I do not know is the point of this post but I wanted to let these emotions go.