spazzing same 'ol again. you know this is my method to get over things right? by letting them all out...hoping by doing that, it'd clear my system...just bcuz i spazz about it everyday, doesn't mean i'm expecting myself to be obsessed forever...different people have different rationales n methods, just to remind. bcuz a lot of ppl often judge people by their own personal standard n rationales. which, i find ridiculous.

and i'm not explaining this unnecessarily because i got attacked or anything...just thought it's better for me to respond first...bcuz ppl might never ask. and just assume. isn't that more dangerous? i'm assuming too right now. lol.

 

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so...still gonna talk about unnir that i've been spazzing a lot lately...(if you haven't watched her badass moments in the drama Voice...feel free to check it out)

so the other day i posted that unnir covered this song and she also made special appearance for the song when the singer did concert/show in South Korea..but what i didn't know was....she's actually also the female lead in the official MV(n thankfully the mv was a tastefully done indie-ish romance movie like).. and the scenes of her performing in the MV actually was of her actual performance,....omg! now that's badass...lol.

(hardly anyone mention her...i guess not many other than avid kdrama/movie viewers know her anyway...since she's not among your top popular hallyu actresses) - a relief though, i'd hate for my unnir fans to go barging into someone else vid saying 'unnir brought me here'...that'd be annoying...although every other kpop fandom seem to be proud of practicing such thing...

but...

I got momentarily confused now...she's in the mv, she appeared in perf, she also covered/performed the song a couple times...

and might i add her version is beautifully moody...what..you missed it the other day?

Here...one of her perfs on it...but not the one in the mv above...

i think this was the one they said from the mv...

 

i love when cover perfs give a totally different feel than original...okay maybe not entirely different...both had this moody gloomy feel but i like the lyrics bcuz it's not some generic crappy shiet i got too exposed in pop music n it's almost poetic i guess n i like the music too...but yeah...this is just the kind of cover i love...and if i can be honest...i only discover the original bcuz of the cover...but i'm really glad i did...because honestly, i love both versions. what would i do if i never discover this beauty? /dramatic earth shattering cries/

okay, back to me being confused...

how are they even connected? it doesn't seem as simply her being the actress for the music video...since even her mini concert perf was included and she's also involved in dude's live show...i'm confused...and realllllyyy curious...lol. no scandalous intention...they're just cute.(at least dude didn't look intimidating like the one i'm shipping with unnir now...n dude is cute, i love nerdy looking ppl tbh...lol.) this unnir prefer to keep her private life to herself n be scandal free. i like that.

 

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Now...i cannot end this post without annoying you further...

so of course i have to also bring up my ship...despite me just mentioned how unnir like to be scandal free...but this is just harmless shipping of people who have worked together...i guess that's quite normal for fans?

tho apparently...it's more acceptable to ship two people of same gender now and you get called delusional lesser, but you're looked down upon for shipping male n female...unless you're shipping a really popular mainstream otp...

i live in such a world. what can i do or say?

 

but you know what?

in this world...

don't you think...

there are times...

dreams that are always meant to just be dreams...

...impossible...ridiculous...

actually come true on those rare occurences..

because of delusional people?

;)

 

 

Anyway, back to my ship...i found something interesting...they both had dramas with almost similar titles...mary stayed out all night(also known as marry me mary) from 2010 and meri daegu attack defense battle(also known as merry mary)from 2007 isn't that reaching interesting? actually both the title in brackets are the more widely used titles of their respective dramas...

 

lol. and also...i also just learnt that Lee Hana's dad was the composer/writer of Becoming Dust (popular folk rock song by Kim Kwang Seok), but made popular the recent years by superstark4 Roy Kim & Jung Joon Young)...isn't that interesting? i never cared about the duet ver...those two dudes are too mainstream for my taste lol(though superstarK earlier seasons were all about bromance in top 2 as well...started with season 1-Seo In Guk & Jo Moon Geun<-opparrr!!, then season 2 with Heo Gak & John Park (i feel most connected to season 2 but couldn't care less bout the top 2 dudes), and oh yeah i think season 3 became a battlefield for groups so... ) 

 

anyway, i'll end this rather modest (or in my standard...super short) blogpost with my fav ver of the song(which had been remade n covered countless times i guess)

it's not like i've heard all versions that exist to pick this as the best...but...the first time i came across this...it just snatched me right away. it has this mystical modern-ish rock feel...and i even love the rap parts too(every time i listen to this ver...i had this dream/wishful thinking of having a cover of this specific ver by ZE:A members...back then the ones i wanted for this song would be Hyungsik, Heecheol n Taeheon. i'm sick of Hyungsik doing ballads n some rock would be good to shake things up....but nowadays...i'm thinking...even Heecheol n Taeheon would be enough, Hyungsik is too mainstream n i'm bored of him bcuz i feel his drama now is overhyped lol....anyway, both the rappers can sing...Taeheon has nice stable tone, n Heecheol has the attitude n also surprisingly seems to be very into ballad-ish singing)

 

no wait...let's end this with unnir...xD she also sang the song a bit with other songs on guitar (Kiss Me, Knocking on Heaven's Door) though she seemed a lil shy/unconfident singing n playing guitar on the show spontaneously...

i think this was from the time she was promoting drama 'Women of the Sun'  back in 2008 (this was some female centred revenge drama n both leads were female siblings...she acted as the younger one) n she won award for her acting in this drama(the other female lead also won and funfact: Equator Man -2012-was male version of this drama)...actually, Lee Hana won several acting awards even from her early debut time and she even still won in 2015 for her drama special...but dramabeans folks(the commenters i mean) just decide to build a hate wagon for her...yeah i somehow got transported back to one of the hate-threads while looking up some info for this post...and saw they hate her cuz she's not pretty to them...they hate her cuz she's weird...like weird in what way??? ugh. annoying elitist shallow beings. it seem everyone got severely into hating her especially for her High School king drama...where they're turned off bcuz she embraced her weirdo character instead of making it a cute normal one or act pretty when the character doesn't need to be...blah...everytime i see them hating...i get this strong urge to biatchslap(i need someone to develop this online biatchslap...or is there any already?)...seriously...it's a shame bcuz that site is like a major community for drama fans so people(with no judgment n mind of their own-you'll be surprised at how many these kinda people exist in this world) were easily influenced by the dominant sentiment going around there. and then go spread around their ugliness at other review sites. lesigh.

i wish more people know to use their own brains n voices instead of just following, echoing...

they're some of the most wonderful gifts to us.

why waste it...you never know when you'll lose the privilege of getting to use 'em.

 

you can choose to try make a difference regardless of the result...or you can choose to just go with the flow cuz nothing's gonna change(you assume) but then there'd be no other possibility...

maybe i don't apply this principle in my real life...but at least i'm using it somewhere...

this is why i keep blabbering for things nobody give a shiet about...

things that might seem like they don't matter...it could matter to someone, in some ways, sometime, somewhere, somehow...

the most insignificant thing...could possibly change the most significant thing of someone somewhere...

anything is possible...

for that chance of possibility...and with nothing to lose..

why not?

that's one of the reasons i rather speak my mind all the time instead of being quietly mysterious n cool.

unexpected surprises and miracles happen because we're willing to take ridiculous chances...

at least for the few that i've experienced...it was led by that factor(of course, still won't happen if God didn't will it to happen)

who knows...maybe one day....

maybe one day, my overly expressive ways will lead me to a destination that actually mattered to my own life?

maybe it won't...there are that possibility too, of course...

but it's worth taking chances...i guess.