what was?

well...my new fanficof course. haha...zzz...

presenting....Tremor~!

 

After getting over so much turmoil in my head arguing with myself whether to really start it or forget it...listening to a song just made me start writing...and it'd be a waste to stop after i've gotten past the most difficult part of writing a fic...which is...the beginning chapter/lines...

 

and this is my first fic written as continuation of a kdrama...i see it as a new fun challenge...i even gave my girl Kwonjoo a relationship/boyfriend...here...tadaa...

who happens to be a character stolen from drama, Discovery of Love...not really a drama that interest me much...idk why Eric kept doing annoying cheesy romance so called realistic, but to me, not so realistic, kinda dramas like this one n oh hae young...i need to see him doing a legit challenging/refreshing role soon or i might stop caring bout his stuffs...cuz i know he could do better in choosing roles...

Anyway, this guy chosen here (the actor's name is Lee Seung Jun) is the one who played Eric's best friend in the drama....the guy just stole the limelight whenever he's on screen for me...he's so nice n caring for his friend...and i thought...hey if our resident psycho mo tae gu's supposed to be dead and i can't ship him with our heroin...might as well get her a dreamy super good guy(n besides, nerdy guys are love! xD)...of course to say if i'm just going to let my otp disappear is still too early...since i just posted prologue chapter...anyway, did anyone notice...seems like this guy acted in a lot of dramas...he's also in Misaeng...as Kang Sora's ex-boss she's so scared to meet again(the drama really made it seem like they had some affair in the past...tricky tricky...) and some of you might think who the heck is this guy, but i'm surprised myself to find quite a lot of his fanvideos in yt from his drama characters...xD...well, he's good at portraying his characters afterall.

the problem is...i'm torn what to tag...if i put the characters name in the fic info...there'd be no surprise....(the ones i included in prologue was according to drama, and not the fic)...and if you've ever read my fic...you'd know how i love my surprises...they keep my interest n spirit to keep writing alive...that thrilling feeling...xD...n do i tag the actors or characters? so many dilemmas...lol.

and then the genres...i keep angsting what genre to tag...because whenever i think of it...i feel like my fic won't be this or that, in any specification....shall i call it thriller? suspense? what if my readers'(if any) don't find it thrilling? mystery? what if they find it so glaringly predictable and not mysterious at all? a romance? judging by the typical standard/traits of romance...what if it's not enough to be that? my fics always tend to be that...not this nor that....they're just what they're...in between of everywhere n nowhere lol...nothing strongly indicating a genre...because it's never my intention anyway. i'm really no good with confining my stories in genres...i like them to just flow as they want to...but i really feel the need to have some it's just....hard....ugh idk...

even if i tag the drama characters...would it even matter...i checked the kdrama fanfics and most fics are just goblin, dots n those hyped dramas anyway...whoever would read a voice fic...lol.

anyway, i choose to write as kwonjoo bcuz 1. i feel more at ease writing from first person pov....first person pov is certainly not without its flaws...but it has become sort of my comfort zone. n i like being comfy so....yeah...and i love her!! 2. even if there's taegu,...i'd still choose to write as kwonjoo cuz she's the sane character...and i always feel the mentally disturbed characters shouldn't have their minds trespassed and be bared open/exposed to readers bcuz it's kinda a sacred divine part of them...even before this...in my past fics...i always choose to portray the voices of the more straightforward less mentally complex characters...bcuz they're easier for readers to relate with...and when it comes to those rich/deep characters...i'd rather leave clues and get readers interpret on their own...i know some people find it frustrating...to not be spoonfed with every characters' thoughts...but that's my way of respecting and cherishing my readers' intelligence...interpretations can be wrong...sure...but it's still more fun and interesting to see,...how readers' interpret can to some extent...reflect your writing...i thought that's interesting aspect too. and as a reader myself, when a writer doesn't tell outright everything...it gives me things to comment about...and to think...that thing i like to do...overthink...lol.

well, gotta go back to writing cuz i'm dying to introduce the next crossover character...lol.

i'm in for the long haul... (maybe not so long, but hopefully long enough for me to complete what i start...i feel like it's going to be a tough and lonely journey...but hey, it's my choice...no use complaining anything...) so sail the ship~

 

 

 

before ending this..rant time...today i somehow went around checking the malay tag...and i saw some fics and my eyes...ugh...from the writing...i can bet the one i came across was written by underaged school kid...my goodness...what even with the -ness of lil kids in this time...am i abnormal for being not when i was in school?(wait...even now i'm not lol)....i mean...if you're dying to write at least have plot...ugh i hate pwp...lagipun... macam,...sangat tak sesuai dari sudut agama n budaya...isk...ok end rant. feel like i'm gonna attract anger since seems to be everyone's fav here...so many without plots scattered everywehere...zzz....ok time to run away for my life...being honest/blunt n not mainstream at the same time is dangerous...lol.

 

 

and...this is typical me...but the more hypes and craze i see bout Hyungsik's drama the more i lose interest, it just feels overlyoverly hyped that i don't have one tiny bit of interest left...even though to be completely honest, i never really cared bout his stuffs that much since he's not among my favs in the group...though i'll admit this that when i got to meet ZE:A...hyungsik definitely was the most surprisingly super friendly n upbeat cheerful one.

i'm losing interest on Siwan's dramas too since the leading ladies are often not attracting me to care(especially the upcoming one)...even though i still am rooting for him n i actually like his diversity in roles better than Hyungsik's.

and ZE:A just quieted down like that....

looks like Kevin never gonna appear on mask singer as i hoped and waited for so long....

i feel like i'd get over them completely faster than i thought i would....

and that's a lil sad...they're the group i invested most money, time n effort in...lol. bcuz i really wanted them to make it...

i guess things just happen....

i'm not going to completely take them off my list yet, it's not easy to do that(i mean, even Battle who has been inactive for like eight years is still top of my list n make my heart soar in pride whenever i see their updates n whatever they're up to... so it really isn't about losing popularity/relevancy/being inactive n i'm not that unloyal...it's how everything's handled that made everything faded faster than they should)....i still like them better than a gazilion more popular groups everyone's crazy bout....but i definitely have so many other groups/bands/singers n stuffs i'd prioritize on fangirling right now(and that includes old/outdated inactive ones).

harsh reality.

 

 

 

bonus:

 

from the day they went for Team Leader Moo's movie vip screening it seem...snifle...my otp need to stop being too beautiful...snifle...crying lmao...this is not healthy, i need a new otp/ship asap....i mean this drama has ended...i need to get off the ship fast n get back to reality before they start doing next drama with partners i might not even like and i'd drown in annoyance in my sinking ship(which i'm sure won't take that long considering how well this drama did to create buzz on the amazing actors that it won't take long for them to get offers/casted again in new productions...)...lmao...dramatic much...but really...the only way to get over a ship is by getting in a new ship...but i can't see any other ship right now....T^T...i'm already sinking down in my drowning ship....sobs. save meeeeeehhhh~~~

Daeshik's frown though...distract me a lil...lol, what's wrong daeshik? xD

 

ok, to reaaaalllly end this post. something cute. (click link to see cuz i'm lazy to reupload or embed)

 

alrite time to go do sth uhh...productive...or...whatever...like writing or...playing game...ouh yes...that definitely is the important thing to do now...alrite yeap outta here...

 

-edit:

great...just when i started a fic...i got another idea...this one...straightup super cheesy n light fluff...temptations...T^T...i hate these clashing of priorities/temptations/ideas/timing...

also...some extra info to make me fangirl...

i just learnt lee hana is daughter of a folk singer...no wonder she loves music...a case of apple doesn't fall far from tree...and also...she graduated with bachelor in music....and she has done some really interesting/unusual roles in dramas/movies, and has an interesting background(i read some comments saying at some point, she used to be struggling musician for real or sth which was why when she did that role she was really convincing... but don't take my words...that's just from comment i saw) and she just...play guitar n piano n sing all the time, songs of various genres n lots of oldies stuffs, n always seem in love with music, and she's funny dork n awkward n carefree, a little tomboyish n yet feminine cute n elegant, has this bohemian, indie, humble vibe, and...and..../cries/...all the epitome of coolness, 101% bias material there.....girl needs to give me a break from fangirling....T^T...someone helllppp meeehhhh~~

 

and this one...performing with her dad it seem...awww..

 

there are gazilions more vids of her playing music n singing...whaat how am i going to have time to watch all....T^T...

the thing is..i've always have good feelings when it comes to lee hana eversince the first time i heard of her many years ago...but for some reasons i never care to see for myself...i like her just from what i read n the vibe her pics gave me...i think i first heard of her from the drama she did with ji hyun woo(whom i became a fan of after old miss diary but back then i shipped him with ye ji won...xD) and also i knew she had her own music show she hosted back then(peppermint..kinda like yoo heeyeol's sketchbook...back then there's kim jung eun's chocolate and lee hana's peppermint and yoon dohyun's,,...was it loveletter? n lee sora's proposal?...anyone remember those times? :p) ..but i never really try watch her dramas, even in her following drama casting...i always feel like rooting for her character because she just has likable vibe...even without watching her...but now that i've watched her drama(ok, i think i have watched her drama with seo in guk but didn't really thought much other than she's likable) n watched her sing n play music...i'm wondering why didn't i watch her earlier even when i already liked her? (or maybe this is the reason i never tried her stuffs...maybe subconsciously i knew it'd be trouble if i get obsessed....) haha...weird huh...i'm always a lil lazy to follow dramas anyway. though i do have my list of fav actors n actresses...