the abnormal sick shallow one?

looking at the response of Mo Tae Gu's scary death in Voice...which over 90% of the response i see say it's deserving...and they wouldn't want any less for him...it made me wonder...

am i the bad one for feeling bad for him? for thinking it's cruel? and no human deserve it especially with abnormal mental condition, even a human like him who had done multiple cruel killings towards others thanks to his inhumane mental state?

people succeeded to make me feel bad for something i would consider basic humanity initially...

sure, if he's in perfect mental condition and still choose to kill, i might consider myself one of the lot who cheer for his death...

but we've seen that he was born with mental condition, he wasn't treated, he grew up being exposed to this kind of life that only fuel his violence tendency...sure, he was told that he could've chosen to not become a monster...but how does a person in damaged mental state in such surrounding made that decision? there's no mental encouragement to be the good person.

am i wrong for thinking he should serve his punishment n be locked forever and that the shots he got from Jinhyuk are deserving so that he couldn't be able to do anymore killing, but he should also get his mental cured so that he's aware of how much he deserves the punishment...instead of just being killed cruelly not understanding anything cuz that's karma for ya. when he doesn't even get it...

either i'm the problematic one....or people are just losing more n more humanity in them....aren't them the same as mo tae gu then to feel satisfaction for his death? and worse...these people doesn't have mental problem as he, so who's the crueller one?

how are they any different than those who supported hudud...even as a Muslim, i found it cruel to chop off someone's hands and feet just cuz they keep stealing...unless you can take responsibility after their life afterwards...and i'm pretty damn sure even if our prophet is alive, he wouldn't condone this. (although when it comes to certain offenses/crimes such as ...i personally think castrate should be the most suitable punishment all over the world regardless of cultures/religions...haa.) the thing about religion is...a lot of changes can happen depending on interpretation of the holy books and verses...that's how religions can become divided to different versions...like the mazhabs in Islam and also in Christianity too, i believe...is it the religion's fault? or the people who interpreted the religion and then made it official? even nowadays...there's hardly legit religious people around here i could ask a question and be convinced by the answer(well, i'm sure they still exist but hidden...all the commercialized ones are mostly the worldly ulama instead of the purely Islamic based)...i would watch religious shows on tv...and how when important questions came up...the religious authority always beat around the bush...and even in this country(and possibly every other county out there)...everything is controlled by government...even religion aspect...even 'truths' reported n spread in medias.... that's how things become messed up. yuck.

even isis...i never once believed this is a legit religious thing...rather, a damnation of religion through an 'intelligent' plan but not so intelligently executed...there are many loopholes that make isis don't even seem legit real but more of an poorly acted puppets...but hey...people are happy to get any reason or justification to believe what they want to believe...who in their right mind would go around bombing and leave their passports n identification all over the place to announce their religion specifically...don't even mention those awkward horribly acted videos...and how did the big cities with strict security policies and procedures...always seem to have loopholes that made it possible for these 'terrorists' to get their way for grand attack with all the extravagant weapons n stuffs? i've seen some people raising these issues/loopholes...but always brushed off bcuz this isn't what people want to hear apparently....;) i'm not so naive or inexperienced...i've been to quite a few countries of different continents...n the airport security themselves were almost always super strict(save for one place i went to...which was a Muslim country, the rest all have elaborate security n procedures especially the Western countries) and i've been treated like a potential terrorist too, once...lol. don't even mention all the looks they gave those Arabic looking people...

and how come whenever Muslim countries/people get attacked/slaughtered/terrorized...their attacker's religions were never made an issue unlike the other way round...whenever it's anything done by Muslim people(so called) or Muslim country...the focus is always highlighted on religion...but when it goes to others...they're always judged as individuals/anything other than religion...that glaring hypocrisy n double standard...I'm not even that religious a person(obviously), but i definitely know what my religion is about and what it's not about.

there are so many dumb loopholes people are happily willing to overlook....and this only shows what kind of people we really are...and with every new lows i see in human...i can't help feeling more n more disgusted n lose faith in humanity.

i've been so frustrated about this for so long...even more than for the damnation of my religion, it's frustrating bcuz of how much it's showing the lost in human's common sense and basic intelligence...

as much as you would find it laughable there are many crazy conspiracies in the world that are more likely truth than funny creativity of bored people...

you'd be surprised that the attacks n even victims could've been finalized in certain attacks, beforehand. this world is crazier than innocent naive gullible minds would like to believe...don't let it surprise you too much. if you think...analyse a bit deeper without prejudice,...you might be able to see more than you're willing to...

you don't have to take my words. in fact, i'd rather say 'trust no one' as x-files have taught us many years ago...:p

i've seen too many lies and dirt beneath the surface and how everyone around just eat up what's on the surface never bother to dust it a bit to see what lies beyond that i'm no longer surprised but still can't help feeling extremely devastated...just like how people love prettified food with food colourings not bothering all the nasty shiets it contains to have your pretty cake...

all i wish is for human to use their brains to think more. think, and maybe eventually you'll find something more valuable than just eating up all served to you that might or might not be truth afterall...

cuz you never know...

eventually, Voice...or rather...people's reaction at Mo Tae Gu's death...made me face the issues i've been trying to drown away and let sink bcuz it might only hurt me to let it out and then see any possible nasty argument about it that sends my brain splattering...i hope not...i used to be able to talk bout this shiet in my own blog but now that i've closed that blog...i just had no other place to talk these things...

ignore me if you can. that would be very kind and helpful.

thank you.