If you haven't read my last post, a friend of mine died Sunday/Monday night and we still don't know why, some ppl say it's because of antibiotics she needed bc she had a flu but didn't take to be able to drink on our "pre-prom" last Saturday, some say bc last year she had some clot in her brain it came back suddenly or an ear infection she also had last year and it still wasn't gone or even that she has a pacemaker and it suddenly didn't work anymore

Her funeral is already this Saturday, which I'll probably attend with our clique, so I guess as well the doctors have found out what actually happened

We are currently able to create a small page (on paper) for her and then we'll put it into a book and give it to her family, the whole grade can participate if they want

And our student representatives prepared a beautiful altar with her picture and tealights we can light if we want in the room we used to hang out when we had recess or no class

We went to the zoo today with our ethics and biology courses and after that we went back to light a candle since we haven't done it yet and my friend J simply said, "I'm not gonna think about her death, I like to imagine she went on vacation before we did and is just gonna come back later and tell us all about it, it feels better"

She was a true angel, may she rest in peace

and I'm sorry for all this, she is the first death I've ever really needed to cope with on a personal level, her funeral will also be my first one, and I'm honestly wishing no one what we're currently going through, does anybody even know what the hell I'm supposed to do? Anybody got ideas?