So I did end up going alone to the fanmeet. When I first came in, almost everyone had someone to fangirl with, all except me. So I just stood there... waiting for them.to let us in, and got to meet some new people, yey. But sorry guys if some of you are reading this, I practically marketted my fics there to those who said they read aff. I'm bad at names, so it would be better not to mention any... Well maybe except Mira, who sat next to me (technically, but we keep moving up to the front phones on hand to record). 

Well, anyway. I'm just writing as always so I can let out bottled up feelings that are threatening to overpower my concept of reality. It had been a couple of days since that best night of my life, ever, and I still can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that I met them in person... 

I've been a Kpop fan for more almost 8 years, and this was actually the first time that I went into lengths as to going to their fanmeet. I have always wanted to, of course, especially since the first time EXO came to the country, but no time and money. Now that I had the money, I made time for this one, and made sure to get the best tickets ever. I had worked my off (yep, literally because all I do is sit infront of the computer for 9hours a day--not counting the fangirling, that's a different matter), and I felt like I deserved the break. And how much better could one spend it than going to meet Got7?! Although it was just half fun because I didn't have my sister with me then because of timing issues... I still had the best night ever.

When they first came on stage, the feeling of familiarity was so normal because I had been watching them A LOT on videos and had been seeing their faces on my phone everyday. But then, they weren't just jpegs and gifs and mp4s. They were actual live people. And they sweat. Like buckets. Esp Jackson and Yugyeom. Haha. And they were in the same room as I was, breathing the same air... If you're reading this and you have met them several times already, please forgive me. This was the best thing that any foreign fangirl could ever get.

And the High Touch. OMG. Jinyoung was so tall in person. JB was actually smiling a lot, and has really good skin. Youngjae seemed taller than JB and his eyesmile was soooo bias wrecking. I finally get to say to Yugyeom what I always wanted to "우리 생일똑같애!" and Bambam's reaction to it was priceless. Then I got to Mark and it was 멘붕. My mind went totally blank, and he seemed to see Bambam's "Ooh!" at my attempt at Korean, because he was smiling and in my head I was like, "I get to see Mark's gums in person. OMG." And it was supposed to be a high "touch" only but his hand was enclosing mine that seemed twice as small, and I knew my money and time was worth it. (I knew it was nothing special to them, but it was for me, so heck. If I could only have captured even just a snapshot of that moment I'd treasure it forever--maybe keep it as an heirloom for my future grandchildren lol) Mark's frame was smaller than I thought and he looked so fragile. 완전 내 스타일.  I was about to go down but there was a small "Hey!" and then a smirking Jackson's face showed up. He was actually taller than I expected!  I gotta get me those solepads of his--they work haha. Jackson's smile was like saying, "Forgetting me, huh?" in the bluffing way he usually had -- or maybe that was just me. 

Getting to see them up close, watching them perform live changed my perception about Kpop. It was something they actually do because they had fans who support them. I saw JB in a new light, he wasn't the snob that I thought he was, and I got to see him at games in person, and Mark's strategic skills in winning them. The 참참참 was just nothing for him, even if it was a Korean game and he was American-raised Taiwanese. But I was also honored to witness their hardwork (their hardcarry lol) especially when they sang If You Do right after singing Fly, and I saw Mark looking like he was about to throw up from exhaustion. To some people, Kpop was just a bunch of good-looking Koreans (mostly) in which men wear more makeup than the women, and entertain people. I think it actually worked the other way around: fans were the ones giving them strength to do what they do. To think that most of them never finish school to sell their youth to people who actually have nothing but criticism for them, waiting for the next scandal, it is really sad.

Anyway, no more gloomy stuff. It was a fun night, and I feel like I have gotten closer to them even just half a step. GOT7 will forever be in my heart. They had always been, but nowbtheybreally earned a special place in it. I will never hear those songs the same way again.