Today, i got a subscriber.

I know that sounds kinda like asking for reactions like.....'meh...i get it all the time n didn't have to make a big deal blogpost for it...psshhh...'

I know, but i don't get that. so whenever i get one subscriber...it is a big deal.

Just that i can no longer go to their wall to say my thanks(not like they bothered to comment anyway)...bcuz i know most subs i get are just obligated to sub to read the fic...all in the name of curiosity...since i use the 'subscriber only' feature for many of my fics....so i can no longer feel the joy of reader genuinely enjoy my fic so much to actually sub to it...but i can't have any regrets on that. i have my reasons to use the feature....and none of my reasons are the lame things people here always accuse writers who use the features...if you hate the feature so much, fine don't use it....but judging other people who use it according/basing to the way you think/your personal standard/reasonings is very, very...lame.

Anyway, back to my story....i was so excited that i went to read the story again...haha....being the self centered person that i am...

and watched the performance that inspired it again...

And reading the lyrics again...

Overwhelmed by the emotions of my character....as he went down his memory lane, his glorious past, and struggle with his present where he stuck the same as his bandmates had already moved on with their lives...as he remembers the things he cherish, his happiness, his passion n pride, despite his pathetic current state.

I feel for his character's turmoil...it's as if reflecting to my own deepest feelings...

it makes me think...and reflect...and think some more...

 

and for those yet to know...the song was original by my oppars...

 

though i think more people out there know it as Loveholic's song...

 

there were two more versions(that i know of)..one was loveholic's drama version which i loved as well...and the other was Kang Hyun Min's solo remake...he's the one who composed the song...

 

fine...i decide to share loveholic's drama ver here since i looove it...

 

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Anyway, since i'm currently writing a fic for my full house take 2 otp...i've been watching quite some vids of no min woo and park ki woong in the spirit of research...lmao....not much...just some songs n interviews...n there's this one radio star episode where both of them guested (died) along with 3 more guests n i thought it was during full house take 2 promo...but no...it was actually 1-2 years after their drama.../squee/...there wasn't much interaction other than when the MCs mentioned about the drama kiss...but of course i'd have my observation on microscopic mode on and i still manage to savour every littlest interactions n reaction they had to each other.../squee/..i know i'm probly in the minority who ship them since they're not even close n park kiwoong was actually much closer with his other drama/movie costars than with the one he actually kissed...haa. but their lack of closeness to each other makes them all the more shippable in my eyes...i ain't for anything easy n in yo face kinda bromance anyway...a little indifference n awkwardness makes for a whole lotta more tension that makes for a more interesting relationship rather than simple bromance don't ya think? ;)

it makes me wonder if their perception on each other was what held them back from being as adorable to each other as their drama characters...n that's the essence i'm using for my little fic...even in the radio star ep...it looks like they started the show acting like strangers until the kiss was brought up and they got a little loosened up and tried to be a little friendly...like no minwoo try to make some interaction/conversation to park ki woong...kiwoong seems a lil awkward/distanced still but kinda loosened up after minwoo did some cheesy cringey funny stuff for the personal charm n serenade segment...i think minwoo was aching to cringe at himself too....surprisingly i found this guy funny...he probly brought the most humour out of the five guests...n in turn of kiwoong loosening up on the reaction...minwoo took it another level when he went in to cameo during kiwoong's serenade perf as the special effect providing wind effect on kiwoong's jacket making kiwoong more confident in his perf, kiwoong was a lil unconfident at first to perform right after minwoo(even though minwoo's perf was rather cheesy n funny that it brought laughs) so i guess minwoo went in to boost his confidence of his own perf, even before doing so minwoo was extra enthusiastic when cheering for kiwoong....ahhh...it's like Take One bromance all over again...except in take one kiwoong or rather, Kang Hwi displayed more affection for minwoo's Tae Ik.

and...they took a pic together during the radio star filming behind the scene it seem...:D

aaaaaaaa...cuteness overload!!! 

i need these two in a drama again...T^T...well, i'd even take it if they'd be like DJing a show together or something...anything.

but another outcome of the show was my discovery of a couple of songs i'm listening to now...

like this one...

Baro of B1A4 performed this on the radio star ep...and it was catchy n his whole perf segment was cute that the song kept replayed in my head that i had to search for it...

and then there's this...

lyrics is cringey methinks...but song is so damn attractive...

actually, even all of minwoo's guitar parts in the show was so attractive...i want to know the songs he randomly played...wonder if they're actual songs or stuff he made up...the drama scene songs were really drama bgm worthy...and the guitar intro before his serenade perf is just....ugh...i demand that part to be included in the actual song...maybe he can like...do a remake/remastered ver of the song with that awezome guitar intro...i can't get that intro part outta my head...:(

 

to end this adorb section let's have some picspam...

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to end this...

the bad girls of produce 101 debuted yall...and with song way better than other produce 101 girls so far(i even don't like Juna's song that much...hopefully she comes back with better stuff)....well, i don't think this song's that great...they'd do better with a fiercer more badass song but compared to all IOI's songs...this is wayyy much better...

I'm so happy...they're the breathe of fresh air in the sea of generic...in the produce 101show n in kpop scene alike...though the song don't really do enough justice to that. i love that each of the members have distinctive voice n personality n appeal n even appearance/looks/image....hoping they'd be well received...

now all i'm left is waiting for my fav girl's debut...