so earlier this morning before going to work...i was just checking out my twitter...

and there's 1 notification....

oh probably someone liked my yt vid or something...

yeah...my guess was close enough...but it's not just any someone...

omg...Eunbin liked...a tweet of my automatically generated notification of liking her video...

so random rite?

(and i just had to include Sooyeon's...i was so surprised she suddenly liked an older automatically generated notification ...i mean, she's always faster in liking whatever post that mention her...she probly missed this or idk what...but i'm pretty sure she had liked it earlier....that video was already deleted and i already reuploaded which she had already liked too...lol...so random)

it's nothing...

and to your big stars even moreso...

but to people struggling...every little tiny thing...matters a lot.

i mean...i can tell this from firsthand experiences...

i never fangirl with intention of wanting opparunnir to notice me...

i never once ask for them to give me any sort of attention...

but it's always the not so popular ones that acknowledge your love for them...and that made me want to give them more support...

i received a lot of happiness from them (unintentional or intentional bragging alert...but not something i never mentioned so...)...like a singer who registered to my forum just to send me personal message to thank me for mentioning him in some random comment in another forum...he went to that length just to find me n even willingly gave long interview...and another band singer who went to find my youtube acct after seeing my blogpost about his band...to ask for my address and send his band's CDs...and guitarist from band i love who replied to my tweet bcuz i didn't tag one of the band members in a random new year tweet sent to them(thinking she had no twitter), she even asked me to sub to their yt channel bcuz they don't ship their CDs overseas when i asked if i could order from them since they're indie band anyway...well, i got myself one of their CDs now...xD...bought when i went there....and even for fanclub...a fanclub of a singer sent me CD of the singer just cuz i commented on some videos of him, that's so random tbh...also, a member of my ultimate fav idolgroup already replied to me that they love me too...haha...though i doubt he meant anything much by it other than the standard reply to fans support message...but still...opparrr

i mean...some of those even involved material...i never expect much or anything at all even when i tweet them once in awhile like when i feel like wishing everyone new year lol, or to tell them they did good...celebrities and fans live different worlds...especially we're not even from same place/country/setting...i won't be sad if opparunnir never notice me cuz why would they?

but whenever little things like this happen...

them showing their acknowledgement for your support n love...

even in this small way...like a 'like' on your tweet in the sea of other fantweets they 'like'

it made me really honoured...

that my random automatically generated notification could mean this much to even get a like.

if they can appreciate something so random this much...

it only make me want to give more support...

well, being unpopular in a path that has popularity as the most important part is hard...

i admit sometimes i purposely tweet with including sooyeon name(without even tweeting it to her) just to make sure she sees it...but only bcuz i want her to know that she's awesome n there are people loving her singing n charisma n she's not all about shirtlift or hot or y or whatever....she might just click like...but that shows that she acknowledge she's read the message...and hopefully will boost her spirit to hang in there n keep being awesome.

expect for reply/response....never.

Aaaaanyway...Eunbin's like made me happy...maybe i should drop some encouragement since now i know she'll be reading regardless there is response or not... :)

and maybe i could write a fic for her too...xD

i already like her eversince the miss a bad girl good girl underdog team...but now i feel that i can like her a little more and cheer for her a little more...bcuz i love being appreciated too...who doesn't...?....

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now on to trainee videos batch 2...for batch 1, here. (since i was talking abt Eunbin...well, Eunbin's vid can be found in batch one :))

 

im hyosun (she left the show before any mission....a shame isn't it? she did good...better than mj ent who did same song i'd say...but that's just my opinion)

pyun kangyoon (hmm, not the best but no need to bash...she seems to lack confidence/nervous/or just awkward)

yun yudam (not much presence but not bad...pretty good i'd say?)

hwang riyu (hmm, pretty good)

kim suhyun (awkward...but...her singing's not bad i guess..probly another case of  lack confidence/nervous)

ham yeji (i think she did good, as far as solo perfs go...this is one of the better/solid ones..)

majesty trainees (justice for niwa shiori...girl is solid performer n good/decent...but so damn underrated that she got single digit onsite vote after her amazing singing n dancing in Fire stage)

kim minjung, kim seokyung, kim sihyeon

kang siwon, seong hyemin

 

i wanted to post lee seheun since she's another one(probly most unknown one) in miss a bad girl good girl underdog team...but her stage of hyuna's red was....idk...idk why anyone even performed that song...it's kinda....blah...(sorry, fans) n if you don't have the level of confidence to pull it off...then it becomes more painfully awkward...another girl also did that song...n i was like...even if you want to do hyuna song...don't she have better song???? ....

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anyway, random but many times i'm really itching to say some things to some people here....but....i'm too scared of having to handle the predicted reaction...so i bite my tongue even if the things i see made me felt the need to say some things to them....

well....i'm pretty sure there are people who feel the same way with my posts...haa...very, very sure. ;)

scary/overdefensive/annoying/think-highly-of-themselves people have that efftect...you can put me in any of the category too...i'll do the same for the ones who fit in...

i've learnt to shield myself from bashing or annoying assumption/whatever...i'll point out my flaws before anyone else could...haa...brilliant ain't i?

wait...

it's already 7am....

sobs

time to sleep....seeya later

hope you enjoyed the trainees...