I was alone in my room and you know pondering on some stuffs and suddenly i've just had this thoughts about me and my sister 

I have never thought i'd come to this point of my life where i'd sart realizing things and feel overly guilty about what i've done in the past

i feel so sad and sorry for my three younger siblings, especially my sister (she's next to me)

as her older sister i don't think i've done enough and i am not a good role model to her

i know that when we were much younger, she used to look up to me and follow what i was doing and all but i wasn't showing her some good things

i cursed a lot, hit her sometimes, nags/boss her around (well bec i'm older so i do that lol), and so much more

now you might say that "wtf that's normal that's what siblings do" but yea whatever

i mean i have been good too but most of the time i have treated her badly and i am regretting those things now

if i could turn back time, i would change my attitude and love her more so that we wouldn't fight/argue much 

as we grew older i wanted to be closer to her ya know be more loving to each other because dammmn we got no one else in this world other than our fam

and i realized that just now. family first over anything else 

so if you guys have siblings too, stop quarelling with each other and just love one another yeah? before it's all to late