I didn't know.. i never did. i fell in love with someone who was in a fixed marriage

dammmmn I didnt know that those kinds of marriages still exist up until today

what made me mad was that he never told me i only knew about it from my bestfriend

i dont want to believe it so i asked him personally and this is how our conversation went (non-verbatim)

Me: so, i heard about your fixed marriage, is it true?

Him: where did you hear that from?

Me: just tell me if it's true or not

Him: yeah, it is.

(i was totally on the verge of crying)

Him: but we are still allowed to date before the marriage so it's okay if we still date now

Me: are you ing kidding me?! how can i be with someone that i know will break up with me when that day would come!

we stopped talking after that day and it's a relief that i knew about it beforehand imagine how heartbreaking it would be if we lasted for how many years but we would never really end up with each other forever. *sighs* i guess i'm really bound to be single forever. i hope not