no...i don't mean job that pays with...karma points...tsk tsk....nooo....T^T...

well....i still have one(i mean, the one that pays money)...but i might be out of it soon...

i only still have one bcuz i'm trying with all my might to live maturedly for once....though we all know how matured i really am and God knows how long i can keep this pretense out of sense of responsibility n maturity...my freedom lover spirit...struggling to be freed from this misery...

like...i'm actually threatened with impending punishments n publicly shamed now for not doing something i shouldn't even have to do but was somehow made more important than my actual job responsibilities like wth...and all my fabulous job, my diligence and everything turns to nothing...just for those petty additional things that suddenly take center stage...

and i'm even actually...threatened?

seriously...this is too much for my self control...

they're the one who'd lose a good worker they're unworthy of if i leave...i shouldn't even feel worried for just some cash at the end of month...the quality i bring (lol)...is more than what i'm paid anyway so who cares?

if i don't leave first...i'll get sacked soon anyway after living a couple more months being threatened and treated with no basic consideration or respect an employer should have for employees...i need to sack them first...

i don't want regret for being hasty(since it's damn hard even to get a job)...but i don't want regret for wasting time to suffer for a couple bucks either...though that's how i was raised n live n grow up i don't believe anyone should allow themselves to suffer so much tiness for survival...there had to be something better out there for us...somewhere somehow...we won't find it if we don't seek it n resigned to fate...but i understand situations often force us...but if your situation allows a choice...why not? 

i know this is word of an immatured person who doesn't have that much real responsibilities on her shoulder like children etc. but...idk...life is too short to withstand so much suffering you can let go...if you're willing to deal with the consequence...

hmm....

i hate deep thinking...lol.

i just need a damn job now so i can leave this shiet...

you got a job for me? lol.

 

sigh...

oh well...

hey....wanna get to know Happyface trainees...? here's an intro video compilation...

they're one of the groups of people/companies mnet chose to throw to the backburner right from the start...(their company performance wasn't aired...which became one of the main reasons they're so unnoticed...actually a couple other companies suffered that too i guess...the too unpopular ones of course...though i thought happyface wasn't 'that' unpopular but still got that treatment...hmm...)

but since they're the girls with Hwang Sooyeon and i'm such a pompom cheerleader fangirl for her now,...i've decided to support her group too...if they end up debuting together...i mean...they already released song together even before debut for their project single...n i already like Kim Jayeon when watching her perf during the debut song mission in produce 101 without knowing who she was...maybe i should do compilation of these girls when they performed on the girlgroup debut song mission so you people would see clearly who's who...xD

i'm just disappointed happyface entertainment is not grabbing the timing right now....

i hope they be quick while people still have some interest...cmon now...

i hope by me adding videos would sustain the interest for them a bit...i mean..their I Got A Boy perf video got 5k views after just a couple days...and uploaded by my unpopular channel...

 

anyway...pick me request time!!!

so i went looking for more Hwang Sooyeon video...

and found this....

her pick me evaluation during their first evaluation...this was when she's in team B...after this evaluation...she went down to C....i guess...probly due to her unstable singing...but it wasn't that bad, i like the strength in her voice...some popular ones i've seen did much worse so shush...n look at that dance....as expected...her power...xD

but then i found mnet didn't upload all in youtube...and mostly that are uploaded are the popular ones...uploaded by their fans...

so i'm wondering....do you have anyone unpopular pick me evaluation you want to see from the show?

let me know and i'll get it for you ;)

but remember...must be unpopular n not uploaded yet on youtube...

i randomly went to look for some other girls and randomly watched Hyeongeun's...

who knew hers was much more girly than i thought...though a lil awkward...and she actually sang it really well...i'm impressed......and her dance was good too...says who kconic girls can't be girly n dance? i need to catch the other kconic girls doing it lol...n kim juna...though i'm a lil nervous to see hers...lol....oh...i hate pick me...but if it means i get to see solo perf from all my fav girls...why the hell not?