stealing some time before sleep...

lately...i'm so.....wanting to start a new fic...even wtihout a solid inspiration/idea...yet...

but this one word kept bothering, knocking at the back of my head....

superhero...

why so? idk...

no intention/interest of writing some superhero fic...that would require too much research n imagination n idk...scifi? for my liking...i'm too simplistic for that....

i'm blaming all the coolness clouding my net surfing daily experience whatever that means...

first, there's Hwang Sooyeon from Produce 101(yeah her again! xD)....the coolest most charismatic girl (naturally, no overdone or exaggerating it...just in her chill way)

when i think of her...she's just....cool....

oh...and...do you know? Hwang Sooyeon is NOT a rapper...she's trained to be vocalist(well, i think that's what she said in the clip i saw but idk if i understood wrongly...i don't think so but it does confuse me cuz in her intro vid she mentioned rap n performed rap as well...hmm...)....but somehow probably realized the great response she received as a rapper in the first evaluation in that 101 show...and thus she went down that path...sure you can argue her rapping skill whatever(even one of the girls everyone praise to death don't sound all that to me....but then again...i'm not the expert...oh...maybe you are....:p...she sounds just good to me n she got main points for nailing the attitude n charisma n coolness can you deny that?)...but she's just oozing with charisma like cmon....i read some annoying comment from the other team's fan saying her team only won bcuz of the shirtlift during the hot issue perf....but cmon...you know you're just in delusion to think without the shirtlift they'd be inferior to the other team...they totally blow the competition away right from the start...but yeah the other team had one of 'the' popular girl everyone must love n support though other than that girl everyone else in the team were well, not popular...so i shouldn't be surprised....i'm just surprised that there are more people who aren't blind to admit Miss Hwang's team just did way better and that's why the other team lost to them. Each of the girls had their own charactieristics n charisma on stage. almost nothing feel amateurish about their stage...strong, powerful n charismatic. the whole team.

And heard that during 2nd evaluation, she mediated somewhat the conflict between her team mates Jeon Soyeon n Kang Yebin....which...actually led me to download my first full ep of the show..ep7...like ugh....1gb? goodbye my computer space n internet limit...goodbye T^T....well, she is the leader...but i won't say anything negative to see her getting praises...i like how she's always so....chill and cool...when tension are high...she doesn't break down(of course since she's not in the fight)...but she shoulda just take the center position tbh....then those two girls can stop fighting for it...plus, she's nominated for it too by her teammates...other girls in teams are fighting for center...but when she rejected it saying it's too burdensome for her...it doesn't feel like some coy fake rejection...she already got attention in previous stage despite starting unpopular before her 1st stage...now that they're nominating her again...she can easily get her way....but no she gave away that spot...idk if she regretted it or not...but i'm proud of her no regrets....even at the end...despite being at the far side or at the back most time during her team's perf....she still manage to get 2nd place after Jeon Soyeon...which...well, Jeon Soyeon's rap definitely was the most noticeable for the team imo...with her attitude on stage...but with all the popularity n position battle between those two girls who wanted to be center...it's amazing for Hwang Sooyeon to slip in between n got 2nd place instead...well, her presence is no joke....to have her out of the show is a stupid decision i tell you....Happyface what's taking you so long to debut the girls already? -_-...but is it just me or was Kang Yebin trying to sabotage her own team when she suggested they don't change the chorus just to go against/revenge Jeon Soyeon?.....that's rather...idk...

anyway...eh...Hwang Sooyeon is all that matters...;) haha...

And anyway...watching the whole episode made me able to find some appreciation for some of the more popular girls.......(though all not enough to make me root for them maybe, just make me like them a lil more than other topdogs)...i like how Park Soyeon initially had this not so good impression on other girls skill in her team cuz of their low rank n how she joined this team just cuz she's intimidated by Bang Bang team's popularity level of the members but then regretted seeing so much lower ranks joining her....but when she sees their true skills...looks like she starts having some concern for them n their positions...the initial her shows typical mindset of typical people n their assumptions based on ranking...but she got her enlightening i guess...i doubt she's that worried she'd be out so when she cried twice after performing...i can feel she genuinely feel sad for their fate...but other girls in Growl team.....goodness...my heart break so bad for them....n they did so good n were so damn cool...i never once thought anything related to exo would be cool...ok...though first time i bothered exo song was when 'Exo-S' performed it...haa...so this is like...2nd time....the girls were really so good n the thought that they knew it'd probly be their last...but they're so happy n satisfied to get little recognition despite their non existing popularity...they're so happy when the teachers said they're the real avengers team... T^T...and they were also all so nice...no conflict whatsoever despite tension that could run high with all wanting to survive...but no, they're all so nice...and awesome....why are the underdogs ALWAYS the most awesome one? (vocals-my best team, rap-do i look happy team, and now dance-growl team)...random...but funny how some people acting like Im Jungmin's company Yama&Hotchicks as some never-heard company...idk...as far as i know...i definitely have heard this name a lot...they're dance team weren't they? The girls are all so likable...T^T...and i'm probly gonna download this ver of the song...yes, this comin' from someone who's never interested one bit in exo, their songs or whatever related to them....these girls are too cool i'll picture their coolness whenever listening to this ver now...it's just sad that they didn't shine individually...but as a team...they killed it. As Jea said...smallest peppers are the spiciest...indeed, indeed....Park Soyeon cried so hard after the perf...but amazingly...the real underdogs in the team who'd know better their fate were so strong....i'm a er for strong cool underdogs...damnit. it seems Park Soyeon genuinely feel sorry/sympathetic for the other girls fate...but it breaks my heart seeing the other girls' expression so proud n happy of their stage...they should be...even when Park Hayi spoke...nope she didn't even beg for votes even though she had more reason for it than Park Soyeon who did it on the team's behalf...she only kept repeating thank you. it seems the other girls already accepted that no way they'd make it....but decide to make themselves proud anyway....Park Haeyoung, Park Gaeul, Kim Minjung, Im Jungmin, Park Hayi, Yoo SuAh...i will keep in mind these names...the real avengers as the teacher said...

....the underdog rap team...i love how Hyeongeun n Minji let Hwang Ayoung get the center despite her not being rapper at all, admitting that they're all greedy to have the center so they let her have it if she's confident enough to work it...n she bravely took it despite being most fearful of rap...i think Kang Sihyun from rhythm ta team had the same struggle of being vocalist who can't rap but had to di it anyway..or was i wrong? idk...i like how Park Siyeon helped Ahyoung in getting rhymings in rap...that's so nice of her...n how Ahyoung is so bright to improve herself while whining(not seriously...kinda....cutely? i almost died of her cuteness while she's whining cutely to Hyeongeun 'unnie' while being ignored or at least in the editing) how it's hard but but she keeps working on it anyway...instead of sitting down n cry or sth...i'm glad Ahyoung got into this good team even though she's eliminated anyway....and i like how she started so scared n timid...but so excited n into it...n how she seems so proud of herself at her achievements n improvements n newfound knowledge in rap...i wouldn't have guessed she's this cute....

of course the bang bang team can have fun without worrying of ranking...like...do they even need to be worried of that? that would seem too greedy....they're already at the top so they can relax n have fun...not to say they didn't do good...bcuz they certainly did...but minus that tension factor...that desperation to prove their worth...cuz they already know it...

but damn the underdog teams...their struggle, n desperation n passion....n just how bloody damn good they are compared to their unfair unpopularity....just....uhgh...gut wrenching...though Say My Name's team made me kinda uncomfortable, nope the whole vibe going on in this team was not good...at all......but i like the underdogs for fighting against their fate(though it'd be more proper to go to their leader instead of the teacher first...though i don't like that girl who acted all nice n defend the leader just cuz she's popular n got it good...) ...i hate people who say the underdogs should just accept their fate as underdogs n let the popular ones hog all the centerstage? come on now...i think Full Moon team probly hav most mental breakdown especially for the leader...Pinky...i would if i am her...i mean..this girl Kim Sohye is so frustrating...she's hardly reacting even when the team scolded bcuz of her...and it's like they're there to guide her to improve when they too want to shine n spend time on themselves...but it's just.....ugh....i'd feel so miserable if i'm in this team...i'm no angel you see...n no faker either. i mean...gurl....at least say something or just damn react...instead of just crying n wide eye blink blink.....aaaaarrgghhh...

shudders...

anyway....

underdogs...they make me think of....superheroes too.

the real superheroes.

i just like underdogs n i like cool people...you'd think Hwang Sooyeon was no longer underdog after Hot Issue perf? well...the ranking answered it all though...but she's really refreshing....not your typical pretty girl...or act tough or some tryhard to look cool or any other typical stereotypes...she's just chill in laidback n understated way but get all packed with charisma n presence once she hits the stage.

anyway...the Growl girls...i don't know them that well too...but i'm gonna take note n anticipate their debut....T^T...

Superhero....i'm also thinking this maybe cuz i'm listening to this cool Rainbow song...

i mean...guyz...that lyrics..that melody...that vibe...you feelin me?

cuz i'm flyin'....lol.

so cool ><

something to add....OMG MY RAINBOW ALBUM ARRIVED TODAY!!!!

like...finally....-_-....when i was least expecting it...

can't wait to see whose photocard i get....wanna take a wild guess?

not like it matters much...i just wanna contribute something as a fan...and i feel the music in this album are worth spend money over....

and speaking of Rainbow...look at how cute these are...

like...omg they cosplay or what...seems that it's for their final/goodbye stage...

but it's not like that's the only time...

Rainbow are underdogs too...but compared to beign popular n all those fanciness...i like Rainbow cuz they're always their awesome rainbow selves....;)

Why are my girls so cool?

why do i have such awesome taste?

mystery's universe i tell ya....

people can be proud of their unnirs n oppars ranking, sales n all those boring things...

while me...just proud of them cuz....hey you don't need me to tell you...you don't need to know their rank or sales or whatnot either...keep those boring stuff to yourself cuz my favs awesomeness are anything but those generic boring standard of how ppl usually justify good....;)

ah...i wanna write a superhero fic just to satisfy my weird sudden obsession to this word...

but i'm just so hwangsooyeoned lately...that i'm wondering if i should just write her...but then what about other characters...should they be happyface girls? or produce 101 underdogs? bcuz i feel it'd be awkward to write her in a story with idols....though it's not like i never did odd mix of characters...

my obsession is probly to the point...i'm watching songs/singers i don't really care for just to watch the back dancer...

Hwang Sooyeonaaaaaaahhhhh /flailing/...

as you can see...my phases may be short but in each phase...i fangurl hard...lol.

is that even something to be proud of?

and...well...i need to sleep soon...

bbut...

omg....check email...only to find twitter notification....

hwang sooyeon liked my tweet...yet again...at 2.33am...which means...like....3.33 in Korea...like....whaa....she feels like having some egoboosting session in the middle of the night or what?....lol (ps: i'm acting all cool here...but tbh...cannot breathe...aaaaaahhh....)