yay...my random blogpost on spree to annoy you...xD

i'm just so happy since i've completed(at least for the time being) walking the dark path of uncertainty having to helm the work that wasn't of my actual work and none of my abilities/specialization/skill...having to pretend like it is n having to face fatal consequence if i make any freaking mistake...

it's like...trying to lead hoardes of people in the dark when i myself could see nothing...

so frightening...

but at the moment...i'm relieved...

though the next day i go to work...

maybe the aftermath of my imperfection or possible mistake done while in the dark will come to drag me down...

but for this little moment...i intend to be happy n have fun for as long as i could...even if just a day or two...before waves of misery n fear of reality come back...

i'll miss living the jang geu rae pre-office life...

i'll miss going back early morning against the crowd...like walking backwards, an anticlockwise clock...

i'll miss those parts that felt so....novel and indescribable...

the early morning air, the lack of vehicles in the city always too busy n moving too fast with all the dust in the air, the amazingly empty trains not crowded for once,...i'll miss them too...

but i'm thankful it's ended for all other reasons...so much fear i had to withstand during that period...

my heart survived from being exploded literally though figurative wise....it's more than halfway there probly,...

though i don't think my heart want to keep being pressured with such fear...so it's not like it change my mind about wanting to run away...just...the lack of opportunities...

and i'm a lil more than bummed that the comrade i'm closest with...the only one who could tolerate n play along with my straightfaced but childish loyar buruk ways n my crappy jokes n astonishing level of (lack of) maturity...seemed to have sent her resignation letter while i was in my little crazy challenging period n will soon leave....T^T...

who will understand my joke anymore? aahhhh i'll be stuck with a bunch of matured boring on top of overly stressful surrounding whose only other topic than work would be of marriage n relationship...ugh...T^T...

random...but...there's a group of young guys who sell nasi lemak in my neighbourhood....they said that they used to work in office...but quit work to try doing their own business...and i saw how it started off a lil slow...they'd be selling from evening to near midnight...but just less than a few months...their business has picked up so gloriously...since they cook mighty good forreal n they give good portion too...to the point that now they only would be selling for less than 3-4 hours in the evening and that's it....

i just envy people who dare to take their own unconventional paths in life, going against the conventional and standardized expectations.

as much as how courageous i am to live that life online n be whatever i want to be...in real life...it's just so much tougher...and after a certain age has passed...you're too scared to even take a risk you could easily take when you're younger n have less at stake...

sigh...oh well...

maybe i'll somehow find that courage from all my online practice...

but for the moment...

i can be as young as i want here....;))

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for the past week...everytime i went home after holding my breath the entire time at the office in fear..my fav music always came out in the shuffle... :)

seriously so many of songs in my top fav list would come out regularly...

one song in particular make me feel like walkin' in the clouds...i don't care if i've posted this a million times heck i'm doing it again yay...

here... you're welcome...

^ my fav perf of the song..albeit unglamorous setting...so cute n awesome...too cute to the point i'm considering a fic based from feels for this...xD...i just love the singer's (Mr.Park) freaking amazing perfection vocals n suppressed smiles, and the guitarist's(Mr.Choi) all-out smiles and his perfect backing vocals, and the rapper's(SQ) cheekiness and youthful rap with attitude without appearing tryhard...everything is perfect.

^ 2nd fav perf of the song...love the setting, the effects,...such a cute production...needless to say, the perf is perfect...as usual of them....;) loving the clearness of the instruments...

 

and more perfs...

of course...all are fabulously perfect too...

 

and the lyrics:

 

Ladies is indeed one of the most amazing singers i've discovered in K-music scene...

while there are many amazing ones as well...

but just the thought that many popular singers are the ones that can't even sing well...while many awesome ones get sleeped on...just...

probly this is one reason kpop is annoying me...

people always look down on the quality that can be found in kpop...

but that's only cuz you only allow yourselves to look/focus on the few blah ones on the glossified surface and never bother to look beyond...that's how they became popular, geniuses...

for their other perfs:

me spazzing pt1: http://www.asianfanfics.com/blog/view/918039

spazzing pt2: http://www.asianfanfics.com/blog/view/945273

get to know them...uhh...quite properly?: http://hidden-skylight.blogspot.my/2014/11/ladies-profileget-to-know-or-your-lost.html

leaving you with one of their newer songs (well, they have another newer song...a drama ost...but i don't like that one that much....same with TETE who released ost for that cheese drama but meh it fell short compared to his own non-ost songs...)

this one i likelove...<3....as usual compositions n lyrics by them: Mr. Park n Mr. Choi...and again, rap by SQ

i'm really loving their combination....T^T....can SQ be like...Ladies' permanent rapper...? i'm starting to feel too used to having this boy in their song...even in my fav song from them...

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ps: if you focus on my life that i shared...i might not respond...but if you give attention to music i share...i most likely will love you lots....xD...