a thought about typical just randomly popped in my mind...

are you typical?

do you like being typical? or typicality?

honestly...i hate typicality...i don't think i need to categorize myself as typical or not...

no matter what i say of myself...other people can see it better...

words/claim can only say so much....(of the truth especially)

i would never set my take on something based on what people claim to be without seeing any of it myself...

bcuz that would make me so naive n gullible and how unfortunate that would've been?

anyway...that's not my thought...

typicality...imo, is not so bad though when you're just naturally typical without wanting/trying to be...and not become typical because that's the in thing...everyone say that...it gotta be the truth...

you know what's worse than typical in this respect though?

it's trying hard to be not-typical for the sake of wanting to be not-typical...

cuz it's cool to be different yaknow...?

nothing annoys me quite like fake tryhards...

though i won't assume who the genuinely not-typical ones are and who the fake tryhard ones are...

and before you assume i'm facing some specific real situations or referring to any specific people that made me talk about this...

umm....please don't hold me to your standard....

just bcuz you might only talk of something when you're facing it....does NOT mean every other people out there would be the same...

it's just....a freaking....random....thought.

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this is much like the assumptions that writers write OCs according to their ownselves...

somehow this topic grabbed my interest...bcuz i keep seeing talks or rather generalization on this as of the recent...

and bcuz yes, i've seen many writers who model their characters after themselves...

but does that make OC as 'writer's carbon copy and thus merit hate bcuz readers logic says so' by default...?

even this....reason for hate...i find very...shallow and typical...

though hey...that's up to you...i can only criticize...but doesn't make me trying to stop you from being however you want to be/think...

just that...finding a whole bunch with same thought on this just....make me itchy to say something...

why do we always generalize and hold people we don't even know to our own standard?

what makes us think they'd do what we'd do if we're in their places?

are we some programmed robots thus we definitely would be the same?

a string of puppets under the helm of a puppeteer?

bcuz people's confidence in their assumptions make me feel that's more or less what we thought of people...

individuals with no individuality...at all...

blah.

oh...just assuming some of you would come with assumptions...

let me clarify that i'm too versatile to get all riled up just cuz i write all OCs...

nope.

i write male idol, female idol, non idol, same gender pairing, different gender pairing, no pairing, female OC, male OC, variety of age...

so, you can keep back that assumption inside your lil pockets thank you...

i'm just annoyed at how much we love to confine our minds...

how much we underestimate the meaning n range of possibility.

people always wonder how i manage to guess things right all the time...

whether it be shows, people or whatever...

the answer is...it's bcuz everything is so typical and predictable that i find it weird people are even surprised i could guess it...i thought anyone could've guessed such predictability....but apparently......

i know that what i do when i guess things is assumptions too...the very thing i hate n criticize...

but you know...my assumptions always turned out right so.../awkward laugh/....

hey...i never said i'm not a hypocrite...at least i dare to admit that much...(this is like my shield in fact...)

do you?

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speaking of characters mirroring real people...

i feel like Jang Geu Rae these days...living a day in Jang Geu Rae's life...

but hold it...not Jang Geu Rae the underdog turned hero glamorous office life...

nope.

but the life of Jang Geu Rae pre-office worker days...

^ this.

 

so okay...i'm working in office(though not anything glamorous like Jang Geu Rae's even underdog life)...

but this being the first time i'm doing this midnight shift thingy...that feeling when he goes back home while everyone else are going to work...walking against the wave...that feeling...i feel like...i can feel at least a portion of it...

bcuz of course...Jang Geu Rae would feel even smaller since he's not even any office worker(trust me office life ain't even that great compared to ppl who have more freedom no matter job status...but the society typical standard will say the otherwise so....) ...he only does part times and the life deemed completely worthless in typical society mentality...

actually even when i watched Misaeng...i felt so so connected to Jang Geu Rae's life, struggles, feelings...the only thing i couldn't connect with him was his super genius gamerbaduk player strategist mind and his idol-like hair...

Siwan did bring him to life so freaking gloriously...every little motion in his body&eye language could speak soo damn much...and as a person who lived her life in the underdog department for most parts...if not all...i can say i so approve...he made the character so relatable, so vulnerable n fragile yet you can understand from where his strength came from...and it doesn't hurt that Siwan's personality added personal touch to the acting that made the character felt so alive...n real...

although i will admit other actors did so damn amazing too that Siwan can easily be overshadowed...that's how awesome everyone in the drama was...even the small roles gave such emotional weight....like when the seemingly selfish Mr.Kim(Mr Oh's boss) chose to do the right thing, n took responsibility and left the company...the scene might not be anything...but i felt so emotional...the turmoil n mixture of sadness, pride, and unexplainable feelings... probably the drama with the strongest entire cast...no weak link...none. even the script, directing, everything...

you've watched Misaeng right? No? You thought it was boring? shame....

it's the most amazingly awesome kdrama alive and i guarantee will remain to be for quite awhile...come n prove me wrong...i dare you....;)

so...back to living Jang Geu Rae....the feeling is most impacted at this time...not when you're working with just a few people while many people out there are sleeping feeling alone since you barely know those people anyway, not when you arrive for work late at night knowing you're missing on the your good ol family time in front of the couch with a pot of tea...mmm....but it's this...riding against the wave/swarm of people going to work in the morning...while you, alone in your empty path to go back home....there's a mixture of emotion concoction in which you can't describe the flavour with just sweet, sour, bitter, salty, or sweet n sour, etc....but i like the calmness...i always wanted to know how it felt to experience it firsthand...and now i do.

and i'm thankful to be able to feel this feeling...

maybe i'll dread it...maybe i'll miss it...maybe i'll feel thankful for it to have come and go...

i don't know.

all i know is...

when i got back and after breakfast...

went on twitter and saw these bunch of adorbness...

^ from Jaekyung's twitter

 

OMG!!! Colour coded Rainbow!!!! spazzzz

 

 

 

^ Yoonhye's twitter

^ Noeul's instagram

^ Jaekyung's twitter - pretty sure she made this...or Rainbow members...they're pretty much talented at this too among others...and Jaekyung did posted her snacks/sweets making the other day for the fans on their comeback...n if Jaekyung posted stuff she made..you better believe it...if you don't...she can easily show step by step of it...so, save yourselves the doubt that could lead to shame...;) but who didn't get their colour....is that SeungA? but....i can't complaint...being the food colouring hater that i am....i can't imagine digesting an indigo coloured macaroon....ugh...Jaekyung's love for macaron though....her dog is Macaron too(dog lovers should go check Macaron out...that dog knows how to pose like....ugh...born celebrity...even non dog lovers should check it out...)

and Jaekyung also randomly collaborated for this song called Macaron

^ and that's about how my fanfic pairing came to be...though i'm seriously suspecting she jumped into this project bcuz of the song title...or was she the one who suggested it considering her obsessionlove for her dog? either way...this is the closest to having my dream collab between A'ST1 n Rainbow (the two awesome abandoned groups in DSP i love)...is it random? is it one of them suggesting to bring in the other? is it fate? oh my romantic fanfic-ish feels that often turned sickening in the fics themselves...

^ pretty fanpic

 

^ credit on pic

to get to know Rainbow more, please help yourselves: https://twitter.com/rnbw_trans

They don't have to tell everyone how close they are...for a group of seven girls to last this long together without a single member change is quite telling in itself...even if they disband later on...i have faith that i can still remain proud n happy of their bond as group members.

now...let's end this by giving more love to Rainbow....xD

cuz they just made your day more colourful...;)

/clap clap/