hello, friends. im back with another rant on the of my daily life! enjoy. today's topic is about my step dad. even though he has been with my mom for 8-9 years, i have no relationship with him. he's so ing annoying that looking at him makes me want to scratch my eyes out, listening to him makes my ears bleed, and speaking his name gives me a sour taste in my mouth. there is more about him that i will probably expose in a later post. this is about right now. 

at the dinner table, we all sat down to eat. i have a lot of siblings. one, keshia, is overweight. another, kayla, is underweight. their ages are 6 and 10 respectively. at the dinner table, kayla had no vegitables because she doesnt like them and she chose what to eat, so its not a problem. dale, the step dad, called her bones and twig becuae shedoesnt eat anything healthy and she will just end up a pole with s. he actually said that to her face. one would think that our mom would say something, but she never does anything right. she started teasing her too and poked her collar bones and pinched her wristbone and said she was going to whither away. ikayla started crying and ran away from the table and dale and our mom, angela, started laughing. i spoke up about it because thatt wasnt right. i told them that teasing a person for being skinny is just as hurtful as teasing a person for being fat. i asked them that since they cd call kayla anorexic and bones and scrawny, if they could call keshia fat, obese, a cow. because those hurt the same way for a person who doesnt like being that way. dale told me to keep my big nose in my own plate and to mind my own business. that made me so angry. but that wasnt the end of it. he continued. he said that what is her problem is her problem and i have no right to speak up about it. insert long pause. because im a woman. i ing hate him. i ing hate that excuse. it is allways woman this woman that all women are crazy all women are emotional wrecks all women stick their noses in everyhbody's business but their own women think they can do whatever, but they are just week. and then he told me to stop being a ing woman. 

how the hnell am i to cointroll that? i didnt know i could peel my off and put somethign else there. good to know. i wont  be a ing woman tomorrow. the rest of the food i ate tasted vile. it tasted like pure fresh from one's . i ate it quickly though and left before i fuvking hit him. i want to do it so much. i want to hit them all. they deserve it. they deseve to hear things that i hear. to an equivelancy that would make them feel the same way as i do. if they did, they would probably hit me. why can t i hit them back? they are always wrong too, but nobody ing tells them so so they think they are all high and mighty. i wanna kick them off the thrones they think they own and burn it all until there is nothing left.

that......would be the sane option.

but my sanity is long gone. not now, but it is accumulationg. everythugnt hey do....ki wont remember it, but i will remember its effects on me.