Guys this is code red. Like I'm crying right now. Have you ever fallen in love with one of the stories on here? I don't mean you comment to make the author happy. I mean you cry over everything and it means the world to you. I'm talking about legendary fan fiction quality. Yeah? Then you can cry with me When I first made my account, one of my first friends was elisaexplosive. I sent her the request because I had read her story nobles obliged and I felt it in my heart. I didn't really understand everything because the theme was that deep, but I loved it with my whole heart and another. It was a part of something called the jaejoong series which had like five or so installments. There was noblesse oblige, rotten apples, dollhouse: Clandestine, dollho.... And I fell in love with all of it. Her writing was so beautiful and I read all of her stories. I loved all of them. I really did. They changed my preference in books and is probably the only reason I still read for fun these days- to find more of her quality. The plots were so thick they would swallow you whole, and once you were in it, there was no getting out. I reread her stories every now and then because sometimes I need to feel something deeper than what I give myself, but I can't do that anymore... She deactivated I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm crying because she had so many beautiful stories on her account like Lacrimosa. I just feel like I lost a friend even though we never shared spoken or written words. I have no way to contact her and I don't believe her stories are posted anywhere else because she deactivated her account. Maybe she isn't in the kpop fandom anymore? This is affecting me so much. I don't think I'll be able to sleep yet. It is really upsetting. I have half of a kind to find her and halfheartedly yell at her and then cry because I want her back. I cant just take away the feeling of losing a friend. No. A sister. I don't know. The kpop fandom isn't that to me. It is a family I guess. Maybe that is why this is so hard for me to accept. I lost another sibling, but for this one, I don't have the closure of knowing what happened to her. Had this ever happened to you? I'm just....i don't know what to do with myself. I just want to beg on my knees for her to come back because she was that great.... I don't know Maybe ill just try to sleep I will miss her