I'm not even that old, and I've been living one disappointment to another. Everybody is so manipulative that there is no soul I feel I can confide in. Neither my mother nor my friends, through talk or text. It's just so tiring when you fall for the same tricks and ploys over and over again,  ending up the same hunched over lump of emotion.  I'm surrounded by leeches. I can't even do anything about it. I don't even know what I'm doing, but  lying here crying because of my stupidity doesn't seem to help. I don't need anybody. I don't think I could wholly believe somebody is trustworthy enough to listen to me and not turn around and do the exact same thing.  It's just tiring, isn't it?