I AM CRYING.

I AM SOBBING.

I AM SWEATING THROUGH MY EYES.

I HAVE NEVER CRIED FOR A STORY THIS MUCH IN MY LIFE (not including manga. Manga will always be seperated from kpop in my life)

[WHY DOES JAEBUM'S FOREVER LOVE PLAY NOW?!?!! WHY DO I EVEN HAVE SEVERAL COPIES OF THIS SONG IN MY PLAYLIST?!]

crying.

crying.

crying.

crying.

okay.

it has been fifteen minutes.

I am not crying.

no

no more.

none

NONE.

I swear to god I'm not immune to tragedy anymore. I used to be, but then I stopped reading manga. I used to read tragedy to help/teach myself how to act, fake cry, or forcibly stop crying.

Now my face is just a wet mess of salty water

 

I never bothered reading 10080 because I used to think it was (idrk why I thought that. I can't remember)

but now

uuuurgh

but really, I hate how I had to reopen my disgusting Wattpad account to read 10080 (bad bad bad memories from...ick). How come it's not in AFF anymore anyway??

I'm basically ranting

I am not in the mood for anything happy

but I think... I might have... I might have lost part of my writers block... (but it's too late anyway. The article and literary piece I was supposed to pass to my school newsletter club is way overdue, and I don't think I can write fanfics. It's just not my forte. I'm gonna stick to fictionpress for my writing... as soon as I get my passcode back [so much for deleting my history and my passcode along with it])

 

but really,

10080 and 86400 was so good.

I have no words for it

I can't even get myself to criticize a thing about it

or even try to interpret it like how I usually would for other stuff I read

 

okay I'm starting to stare at my cursor again.

I keep spacing out

I think I need a really good non-cliche fluff story, preferably a short one

and preferably not about EXO

because I'm still sensitive.

IT'S FICTION

BUT MY HEART WON'T UNDERSTAND.

IT'S FICTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need manga and anime back in my life... it helps me cope better with these type of things...