Yep. Trust myself to randomly click on a link of homin singing Love In The Ice. I started crying 30 seconds into the song because one look at yunho is enough to make me break the down and sometimes I think how hard they worked behind the scenes to work on their singing even more to cover the gaps and do so many songs and parts with just them. I think of how frustrating it must be for them to sing harmonies because they don't have the 3 levels of voice to bridge between them. I think of how empty it feels to sing a line that you know was once done by someone else. I think of how the stage is always so empty nowadays and how much more they have to run around. I think of how lively they used to be and playing with each other backstage but now the two quietest are left. I think of how they used to sing in Tokyo Dome, hell I ing see their shadows when I watch concerts of super show or whatever other concerts and i recognise the exact place they stood on or sat before and I ing hurts because I see them, just the two of them in Nissan Stadium and its such a huge stage and they look so alone. I think of how painful it must be to be separated from family that you lived with, fought with, and worked towards a common goal with so abrutly. I think of how tired they get behind the scene and how they miss DBSK more than anyone else. I think of how changmin says he's envious of how much fun suju has in the practice rooms and I want to cry because I know the junsu who always bothers him isn't there anymore, and there's no more jaejoong to cook him late night dishes and no yoochun to eat a mouth of rice at 3am when he is bored. I think of how much stress yunho must be under when he struggled to remain strong against all those terrible words and doubt and skeptism and now he doesn't have jaejoong to lean on and cry backstage, how I won't see his fatherly smile when he see junsu do something stupid, and that he no longer have yoochun to fall back on. I think of how jaejoong doesn't have yunho as his support anymore and how emo he became and all those new tattos that I know he's been getting because its how he relieves pain, how he doesnt have a rude brat that wants to be called hyung even though he's the maknae and is only obedient when he's hungry. I think of how much yoochun seemed to have grew and how he no longer cries because he has to be strong in the absenceof their leader, and how he no longer has his favorite dongsaeng to take care of. I think of how much pain junsu went through to remain true to the stage and music that he loved above anything, and when he sings old songs on his own concert and he stumble over the lyrics but his eyes are still the same, how he no longer has a changmin to bother and get bothered back, how he no longer have a yunho to shield him from harm and keep him away from things that would ever stain him. I think of how jaejoong talks about JYJ from DBSK, how junsu blurts out a line about "us tohoshinki", how the last thing yoochun asked for us to not forget about him jyj and tohoshinki on his last fanmeet. I wonder what they think of as they read lyrics of Proud and begin and whatever songs and try to recall how to sing it, will they remember random episodes that happened during practices or lives that we don't know about, do they think of the complimenting voices, do they remember what a legend they created.

Okay sorry I should stop wtf this is getting out of hand. All this started because I was checking out covers of Love in the ice by SPEED and DGNA wth.