WARNING: AWFULLY LONG or maybe not (COPIED AND PASTED FROM FRAGILE FALL'S AN)

I'd like to take this moment in to officially apologize to the reader's of Mr. Byun Baekhyun: Untamed for my disrespectful actions of disappearing without a notice. Which happened a few months ago for those of you who did not know, it was during the height of my– I would not want to call it depression because depression in any form is not something that should be taken lightly, this fact, I am well aware of. People, myself included, revel in their ability to up and come into melancholy–for some, because it’s cool–which shouldn’t be the case, really. At the worst, depression is a very real thing for some of us, and the mockery of something so serious to earn love is just despicable. So I'd rather dub it as a month full of undirected emotions. 

The problem was I was okay. Not numb, just…okay. And being okay was gray. It’s bland. It’s forgettable. Being fine was lukewarm. Normal.

To be clear, I am not vilifying normalcy nor aggrandizing disorders. But the things that I do, they run on high-octane fuel: joy, anger, love, lust, desperation–these things, they require an extraordinary range of emotions, and I–I was not functioning the way I should.

I guess banking your whole life on volatile bodily functions is never a good investment to begin with. So I deleted all my accounts and much like, the Yang Haru depicted in my other story, I shut people out and focused merely on the school matters and learning the new ways in my new household.  I know what I did was insensitive for some of you and very wrong and you may not want to hear out my thoughts and brand them as mere excuses. I won't blame you for that. I just want to express my thanks for those of you who still read my works. Thank you for your kindness and patience. And I am so so sorry for disappearing.

And to a certain someone: I hope you’ll understand and please stop judging me because you don't know what I've gone through and that deactivating was never an easy decision and I’ve mulled it over my head countless of times before doing so.