So, I logged in today and discovered it’s my AFF anniversary. Huh.

Three years ago today was the first time I ever stumbled into this time emotional chaos place. It hasn’t been the smoothest ride, but that’s life for you. I’ve made some great friends, chased off some not-so-great ones, alienated a bunch of people, scarred some others by putting their favorite idols in some truly dark situations, and well…I’ve mostly had a good time. I always said that if I stopped having a good time, I would leave. Since I’m still here, it’s still pretty good. Or you know, pretty Gyu-d. Ha.

In honor of today, I’ve decided to temporarily open up the first fic I ever shared on here, Sweetest Vengeance. It’ll be open for one week starting from today, after which I will put it back on friends-only.

I still believe it’s one of my best (I don’t in any way believe it’s perfect; it needs so much work, but it’s my baby anyhow), and it’s the first one I truly threw myself into writing. It consumed me in a way no other fic since then has—insofar as my muse would not let me rest until each chapter was done. I finished it in record time (for me) and I feel it really showcases the themes I’m most interested in: right and wrong, obsession, compulsion, the darkness of the human mind, and the complexity of human emotions.

Oh, and there’s . Lots and lots of .

LOTS.

Myungsoo , though, because that was when he was still kinda-sorta at the top of my bias list.

If you’ve never read the fic, please do look over the warnings listed. They are definitely not there for show! For those who have already read it, I’d thought I’d share some…uh, I guess they’d be trivia…about the fic, just in case you were ever curious.

HERE GOES!

1. When I began writing Sweetest Vengeance, I was still so new to Infinite, I wasn’t yet certain of their last names. Consequently, there was one part of the fic where Sunggyu became “Lee Sunggyu.” Yeah…

2. Although I never had any one person in mind for Yoon Hye In, the moment I saw Kim Yoo Jung, it was like she had come to life. She is waaaaaaayyyy too young to be in anyway associated with this fic, but in my mind, an older version of her could stand in for Hye In.

3. I toyed with the idea of having Sungyeol end up just as horrible as Hoya, so that Hye In would feel that she should just choose the lesser of two evils and go with Myungsoo, the devil she knew, but that choding refused to turn bad!

4. I think a lot of you already know this, but this fic is heavily inspired (theme-wise) by Kitty Thomas’s Comfort Food. If you enjoyed my fic, I highly encourage you to check out the book. (Click on the image to go to its Amazon page.)

5. Hye In’s alias “Yang Hee Jin” is taken from two sources. The Yang is from Yang Seungho, the leader of MBLAQ, and my first Kpop love (rest in peace, MBLAQ5). The Hee Jin is from the name Kim Sam-soon of the Kdrama My Name is Kim Sam-soon wanted to give herself. So now you know.

Yup, so those were some totally useless factoids about my fic. Just thought I’d share, in case anyone was ever curious. Thank you to all you lovely readers for your continuing support and patience. For anyone who’s ever left me a story comment, blog comment, wall post, or PM, thank you, I’m sending you a big basket of Gyu-sized strawberry kisses…

…which apparently Woohyun would like to deliver. Ha.

This post approved by “The shorter Kim who somehow became her bias” Sunggyu.

*Pictures credited to their owners.