I don't know if I can consider it as first date because it was a friend's outing... well supposed to be but I guess it is not anymore when the guy you are meeting openly asked you out several times and even said you were girlfriend material...

I was not planning on telling anyone about that outing besides my best-friend... but now that it's over... I need to share this with people and there's no way I'm going to talk about it on facebook...

So please guys, tell me what you think about it.

The guy I met today, let's call him Jay since his name is pretty close to being that... Jay was my coworker until this week, had to left because he's starting back uni next week. We've been coworkers for the whole summer but we met last year on Taekwondo classes. Anyway... so for the whole time we've been working together... Jay has been hinting on dating... things like telling me he loved me when I told him I made my otakuthon cosplay myself, asking me what was my type of guy, telling me our boss is shipping us together, asking why I don't want to date him and telling me I'm a dream girlfriend and all...

Know that getting complimented is one of the things I despise the most because I don't how to react to that... and he kept doing it non-stop...

So last week Jay came up to me, asking me if I wanted to meet him for coffee and a chat. I declined his offer... because I'm far from being a social butterffly and that conversing with someone is one of my weakest point! I cannot look at people I am talking to... which oftenly makes people think I am not listening to them. But still Jay kept insisting and I have a very short patience... so just to shut him up, I agreed...

And today was the day... ugh... we met at Mcdonald's and had coffee and ice cream, talking for around an hour... him showing me dumb explicit videos and laughing at my reactions, saying that it was funny how my cheeks became as red as my hair. Then we left and went to a park, chatting on a bench. We talked about this and that, mostly animes and cosplay and K-Pop/J-pop. I told him about that cosplay I'd wanted to do last year which included me wearing a maid outfit and he leaned really close like '' You have a maid outfit in your closet?''  I quickly replied that I did not since I never got it thus why I had to make my own Matoki cosplay last year at the last minute. 

For the whole 1hour and a half he kept being like that, doing weird explicit comments like these which I was used to after that summer spent at work... but we were alone in a park at 9pm so... I was feeling quite uncomfortable and it only amused him, saying it was cute how flustered I was... Remember I hate getting complimented and even more getting called cute... 

We drove me back home and we talked some more in the car... and his comments got worse like '' You get flustered so easily, I wonder how red you would get if I kiss you'' or '' I really want to kiss you goodbye but I'm pretty sure you would sock me in the face'' YES! YES I WOULD TOTALLY PUNCH YOU! I told him this outing did not mean anything... I told him I could just not see him as a potential boyfriend... that I saw him as a friend yet he was not the type I would date... He knows that, I told him more than once yet he called this outing as a date...

Guys say Girls are hard to understand but boys are too... I just don't get that guy... he could get anyone else, prettier girls than me I mean... I am not that pretty, I am small and have a pre-teen's body. My personality is not that great and I'm a huge ball of social awkwardness... I just don't understand why that guy wants to date me. He could have dropped this stupid idea the first time I turned him down but he keeps insisting... I just don't know what to do about, I never had someone openly hitting on me like that and it makes me wanna crawl under a rock...