so today i went to the internet cafe i used to frequent...a lot...because i needed to print something n i couldn't print it at the place i used to get my prints from for the past years...
and the net cafe...was nearly empty...
i remember how it used to be so packed all the time...
to the point that at times, we gotta wait to get a place...
i remembered the good times...my early years in kpop were spent a lot in this place...lol.
now, many other net cafes have been opened...
not too mention most kids have smartphones, tabs, laptops, and all those whatever gadgets of their own anyway...
and i was suddenly overwhelmed and hit by memories, by realization...
memories, no matter what...leaves you with waves of emotions...be it sweet, bitter or bittersweet...
somehow it always end up tasting bitter in some ways after you've left it a certain lengths away...
memories, seems so precious, but after awhile, it becomes nothing to some while some others keep holding on to it, and after the expiration date of livelihood is reached....and more years passed...it'd be completely washed away...as merely nothing.
in the end, everything turns to nothing.
somehow...it's frightening...living, too busy/concerned on moving forward or even moving but not forward at all...recklessly leaving traces behind...
and all of a sudden, looking back and seeing how much have changed...
sure...everything changes...even every second, our age changes...
and changes are inevitable...
but going through something so natural, doesn't mean you can't feel stabbing emotions over it...
feeling is something that's inevitable...
even though we eventually have to deal with it...
it doesn't mean we can't feel anything about it...
somehow i felt the aching...
and on my way home, i silently prayed for the net cafe's business to get better...if it's really on a slump n not just my bad timing...
maybe i should drag my friend there for a date instead of going somewhere to talk...n end up just playing computers? :p
lol. such a fanfic-like...random post...just felt like blabbering it before i let myself be distracted and shoved away the thoughts to be forgotten until another wave of memories come...rinse n repeat...

sharing this song for the nth time bcuz it can never go irrelevant in such topics...albeit depressing to an extent...

and oh...of course...fangirling must go on!

my oppars~! (i know, must be annoying huh....:p)

guyzz...i found their full perf video when they had three members...adsaknfdjkfjgkn

i gotta admit i'm so proud of myself for this 'achievement'...tsktsk...lol.

a bit sad though that mr.park got so little parts...T^T...how could you hyunmini?

at least, it seems like mr.park became main vocals after mr.jung left judging by how he mostly get the chorus for their title songs....although i doubt they even have this main vocals term n depending on songs...different member can dominate parts...sobs...this was from about 10 years before i even know kpop...T^T...i really wish it's much easier to find their stuffs...even though 20 years passed...their music are still so relevant n significant to me...

yet another post...yet another episode of fangurling...

(this is why it's better when i'm on rational critical mode n not fangurling...i can't believe i have to get up early for a stressful day tomorrow n here i am.....fangurling oppar..../facepalm/ no regrets ♥.lol (ok, maybe too early to tell))