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3.in

4.love

No really. i'm just as horrified as you probably are...at the sight of me dishing out these embarrassing fangirling freely, n shamelessly...fangirling is usually a quiet private activity for me, as i saunter around parading my chic professional matured nonfangirly image...(ugh, really? please pretend you never even saw that line...pft)

first of all...this song!

so. much. feels.

the cool lyrics and music and them voices...ugh...ugh...simply put...just my type...><...
this music gives me life...(not literally but yeah you know)
i thought mini only writes good rockballads n mushy romantic...but the more i learn of their songs...my discoveries of the two just keep impressing me...

What i love even more is...in the 9 songs of them i've translated...i've already found a vast variety of 'stories' n sounds/feels in the songs....from sweet to romantic to cheeky to wild n carefree to deep n thoughtful/pensive to sarcasm/mocking to simple to sleek to dreamy to rock to ballad...just...whatever i like...though a pinch of 'dreamy' is always sprinkled into their songs no matter what genre or story...though maybe that's my biasedness speaking...

Here, have another 2 songs...xD (1 by mini n 1 by deuli yikes...now i've given both of them creepy petnames...)

 

for more of their songs....here.

I also think that each of them would have more lines/highlights for the songs that they compose(if i judge/identify their voices correctly that is...)...so it's kinda fair...since they each always compose same amount of songs in the albums...i'm still bummed that they're no longer together.....T^T....

and as much as i want to take a break...i'm already working on 10th song...wtf....it's like someone messup with my brakes...now that many quirky songs have been done...i'll be working on a couple of their ballads...

Sadly, there's one song that's missing n i've been looking for but couldn't find...but i doubt anyone would be able to help me get it either...so...oh well.....T^T...

 

Actually...there are many (more meaningful) things i want to say...but somehow...now they all left my mind to blankness...

so i'll just....

 

oh...bad news...is i started a new fic...again...(just...greaaattt...two new fics in like...a week? ugh) now this is why i'm more scared when i don't post up my ideas...because i might end up spontaneously start them up...when i don't even know where will i find time with my translating-oppars'-songs obsession...wanted to get a proper poster...but again...laziness to wait got he better of me n i ended up taking one pic that match and simple-editing it up a bit...

I'm not sure how dedicated i'll be in writing it...haa...but...i'll just talk about it a bit...

this is a spinoff for an existing fic that's not even completed n is stuck somewhere in the mountains...lol.

i decided to expand the character of Romeo...Romeo.. originally is a person.. himself(which appeared in the original fic)...but now...i've turned him into a creature type instead of a person lol...(you'll always be the original, Romeo)...but now we need a different kind of Romeo...who knows maybe it could help me getting back to the stuck flow of my original fic that has been going round n round...

with every fic, i have a personal goal i don't really mind to share openly...blabla......and with this fic...i hope to...create a Romeo that is a charmer n will make youmyself fall for his charms(make me lurve you Maeng, i dare you to defeat my oppars...lol), maybe be confused even of the line between hating him for being a devil n loving him cuz he's just lovable(which i don't know if i can achieve without letting him fall into typical tropes...but...we'll see...even the heroine will be somewhat harder to tackle since Jooyeon's supposed to be smart but she has to be deceived at some point for plot progression so idk how that will happen...actually writing a totally dumb n low-self-esteemed character like Hyeonrin wasn't easy either). i think the Romeo character in the previous fic lack some sort of refinement/finesse due to the one-track motivation to find his 'lover' in heaven...so...this new Romeo(actually he's the senior since this is what happen before Unlock, considering it's about what happen with Jooyeon n Maeng)...will have a different goal to mess up with the humans...and i'll have to think of what that goal is...lol. But...i'm happy to bring in two very barely written characters in aff-land...ugh...i'm horrified when i tried clicking their names after tagging them...she's like...one of my fav girls...n while he's not exactly my ultimate fav from his group...not like i have any strong favoritism in that group...it's still horrifying sight...the lack of fics...n i don't exactly ship them but that's all reasons to make me even more excited...the less you know/feel for your 'celebrities used for character'...the easier it'd be to freely shape them however you want without being tied to background knowledge...

actually....dundundun...i haven't thought of any specific point of the fic...other than being a spinoff backstory for Jooyeon's character in Unlock...which isn't even important since she's like a cameo...i guess i need a familiar yet fresher air to be inspired bcuz i really am not inspired...the problem of letting myself be too in love with oppars realm of dreamy sounds...ugh....oppars...can i blame you? i luff you though..../twinkling eyes shooting hearts lol/

and yknow...i just thought that since there are seven types of devils(that will represent each of the seven deadly sins) ...and A-JAX has seven members....i guess...i could give them cameo roles as other devils as well....any name suggestion for each type? since we already have Romeo that represent lust...i'll have to think of six other names...-_-..but i think i'll have fun creating those stuffs...but now that i'm reading all these types of sins...i'm starting to feel Romeo(the Unlock one at least) fits more for Wrath or Vanity...but oh well...i guess if we're not going too literal...Lust isn't so farfetched for him...i guess...

and our new addition to the Romeo clan, Yunyoung...if you don't know which is he...he's the one in Hot Game MV who 'won over' Nicole after she played the rest of them..and he dumped her after getting her attention like she did with the rest of the boys...and i didn't even realized that when i chose him as the Romeo character in Unlock...how he would so fit (anyway, i still think Seungyub's part in the MV's plot is hilarious...idk why it just looks funny...Jaehyung too maybe)....oh...speaking of that...i just noticed Seungah n Hyungjun are now following each other on twitter(ugh i'm such a stalker)...maybe for some months or sth...didn't notice since when...not that it should be surprising since they were ex-labelmates anyway...but Hyungjun's no longer in the company for years n only recently they're following each other is quite curious...though it may be they met in some show n decided to keep in contact or something...anyway, not important since it's their rights but....it reminded me that i paired them (albeit one-sidedly since Hyungjun's character was one dimentional anyway) in Unlock...it's like...my fic pairing coming to 0.5% live, omg...lol. (i don't exactly ship them btw...i just like pairing up random people sometimes)

i still think A-JAX should do something like 2Myx concept again...it's the right balance of everything to be a hit but sadly it didn't since it's not from some uberpopular group...(i was watching their live perfs...n realized how much the camera keep showing Jaehyung but he's quite horrible with expressions...at least in the perf i watch...while Hyojun/what's his new name again....Jihu?Jiho? ugh...why do Moon people have tendency to change names...used to be so awkward in pics but has the potential to show charisma in motion-MVs/stages,he's pretty good actually,i'd rate him 2nd or 3rd or 4th in charisma...Seungyub just is all smiley...lol...Sungmin has the potential but he's barely focused often...Hyeongkon is just Hyeongkon....n Yunyoung is just alrite i guess...not like i think he's ever meant to be the charismatic one anyway.... Seungjin just...this kid tops the charisma no argument...(no he's not my bias lol...i don't think i even have any in the group since i barely follow them...i just want to see them do well)...

 

oh well...i should at least try to update one fic in the near future but...i'll try but...

ugh opppppaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...........

i think i'll just continue translate oppars' songs...><...(though i'm still high in Do Do...and For the First Time, and 555 and...and....fine...all)

 

sorry for all these creepy posts...i just need to let my fangirling out n i only dare to do it in aff...:p

 

i need inspiration badly...n not for ideas..i have plenty of those...but inspiration to actually write...ugh....zzzz

 

ps: anyone's watching Mask Singer? i diligently watch the clips released by mbc every freaking week just to look for Kevin Kim Jiyeob(ZE:A)...ugh wtf are you doing not shoving him into the show star empire? and wtf are you doing not going into the show, Kebin? and wtf are you doing not pulling Kebin into your show mbc? :/

 

and also...i realize the less i bother about the current kpop idols...the happier i am...with all the hypocrisy, biasedness, rude behaviour, fanwars, overratedness and all that ....i feel happier just being in my own little world of music i love...far far away from the mainstream current kpop scene n the overratedness of it...

 

and i went to netbuzz that place infested with all the crappy people who wholeheartedly believe they're the intelligent bunch...and say what? now everyone's justifying assisted death...alright...those who still have religions...keep saying your prayers now always, since the world might end anytime...-_-...i lose hope in people, common sense n intelligence even moreso than humanity by the day...the world is too filled with freaky ideas being embraced by more n more freaky ppl...