Here I am in class, supposedly, 'researching' on the topic of Invertebrates and Medicine. I'm becoming annoyed with the class and starting to fret over whether I will be able to teach the entire class for a week. I'm a high school junior and I'm already being burdened with teaching my classmates this subject, which, I don't even understand. At the moment, I have no information, but just meager ideas for my powerpoint presentation. I can't understand why our teacher is making us teach on subjects none of know very well. Would it not make more sense to make powerepoints AFTER we learned at least some background info from a RELIABLE source like a zoo docent or expert?

I'm beginning to worry. School is once again rearing its big ugly head at me, threatening to overwhelm me with all-nighters, projects, essays, and then there are the exams: the SAT and AP exams. Will I be prepared? Will I fail? I have no entire clue. But I know that it all depends on my attitude.

And for one, I am determined to get good grades and be successful. It's astounding how so many people in my school cheat their way by stealing tests, inputting grades in the teacher's computer, etc. How a girl can get a 4.2 GPA that does not deserve it while I, someone HONEST, get around a 3.4-ish GPA. These are things I constantly can't help thinking about.

Fanfiction is beginning to be a nuisance for me.

I mean, don't get me wrong, it's still interesting and I admire good writers, but the desire of writing isn't the same for me anymore. To say that I wish to give up on my stories, I am certainly feeling that way.

But I also feel that it may be a mere break as well. But I'm commencing to realize that I only wish to write for myself. It pleasures me to read my own writing, cringe at my lack of words, and laugh at the comedic content which lays in it.

Kim Jae Joong...I'm starting to realize that the man will never know who I am, much less be my husband or lover. [Excuse me while I laugh at this last sentence] It's fun to fantasize over such a man, but I'm also thinking it may be unhealthy.

Now back to my 'research'. Take care loves~